IM back in controll of my eating I was on such a long stall for so long . Finding this site has giving me the tool i need to be accountable . Im on my way to my goal and i know I will get there.Its amazing how much support I have gotten from ppl here and I want to be able to give as much support back.
needing some help!!!!
Posted 03-25-2008 at 09:19 AM by magickal1
OK i would like to tell my story ,I am not the best typist and need spell check so bare with me plz.After a very long abusive relationship i decided to get real with myself and step on a real scale and see what i had done to myself i went to the doctors office and they weighed me,Omg i wanted to cry when i seen the number on the scale it read 422.5 I was so embarrassed I wanted to die right there and then.I decided t hat was it I was going on the atkins and i was going to make it a wol not just a diet well i started it May 2006 and i lost really fast by that SEPT i went back to the doctors office and i was 315 I couldnt believe it , I stayed on tract for the next few months but i wasnt losing the number stayed the same so I thought maybe my scale was broke i bought , but I had to know what i weighed it was killin me not to know I then decided i would go down to the weightloss clinic and have them weigh me Im single mom and times are'nt that easy right now so I explained to the nurse i wouldnt be signing up i had no money, but i desperatly needed to be weighed after giving her a brief past history she felt sorry for me and said she would let me weigh there,i weighed 315 no loss i was so upset how could i still be the same weight after so long I went home and cried all that work and nothing so I stayed on the woe and by that february of 2007 i went to curves to do a try out and get weighed and there scale said i weighed 320 omg how could i have gained grrrrr. so from that time on i was walking 2 miles a day in the snow and rain but still no loss i was so frustrated. i tried very hard to stay on plan, but i was starting to have bad days and gettin back on the next day by that summer of 07 i weighed in at 350 yes i panicked i cried i was feeling so desperate i shoulda been down another 100 pounds by then i became so depressed didnt want to leave my house or go no where i was miserable. I had a break down and i went to see a therapist cuz i felt like giving up totally.I wasnt sleepin for days my mind was so messed up and i was so unhappy that i was still failing when i was trying so hard.ive been losing the same 20pounds for the last 9 months every month id gain 20 and lose 20 nevr ending cycle . Last week i decided i was gonna stop this roller coaster and go very strict like in the atkins 72 induction when i started last week my scale read 348 today it read 335 so thats 13 pounds in less than a week, you would think I would be happy , but im not i want to get out of the 300's period....I have set a goal of being at 240 by november and i have found this site that i been reading almost everyday I finally decided to become a member and hopefully get a buddy to keep me accountable and focused and i could do the same for them .Im 35 years old and unable to do the things i want to do cuz my weight is such an issue for me so if theres any one that would like to be my buddy i welcome you.
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Hey hang in there, this crazy journey of weight loss and the struggle we go thru to achieve the goal we want is a crazy one... but you are doing good ..... just Love yourself.. accept that You are a very Precious special person... the weight is not you... you know who you really are... that person on the inside.... you know you will be healthier and stronger and feel physically better because you are doing this for YOU.. no one else but just Precious YOU! One thing that helps me is to measure myself now and then... because when the scale is "bad News".. it helps if we see some inches going away anyway... how do your cloths feel? Look for little things... signs of progress that you can smile about. Remember.... food is just for nourishing our bodies.. and not a medicine to make us feel better.... I have been an emotional eater... and I have found that along with low carbing I also have to exercise to kick some pounds and inches away. Think good thoughts on PURPOSE and you will find yourself making progress.
Good Luck.... we are blessed to have these boards to share on ... It helps alot. Norene (JeannieH) |
Posted 03-25-2008 at 03:40 PM by Norene
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