Tuesday, October 23rd

I have been receiving lots of comments lately on how good I am looking. I'm wishing now that I took my bust, waist and hip measurements when I started, so I could have something to compare to. I'm thinking that perhaps I'm starting to lose a lot of inches, which is all of sudden becoming quite noticeable to others.

I find myself even though I am losing weight (43 lbs since April 25th), and looking better, whenever I see myself I still think "Ugh ... what a whale!!!". From reading other journals, I think this is a mentality that a lot of us have and even when we reach our goals, it is still hard to shake that way of thinking.

I have to find a way to get some "me" time at home to exercise. With DH working till midnight I am left on my own to pick the kids up from the sitter, prepare supper, assist with homework, take to activities, bathe, blah, blah, blah. Kids are 9 and 6, so not real little, but still need help from Mom. I am finding myself feeling really angry and not having any patience. I am lashing out, especially at my youngest, my DD. I feel terrible, but can't control myself sometimes. I think a break on a weekend where I could just relax and take a debriefer would be very good for me. In any event, I sure have a greater respect for single parents!!!