Yup...it has been a crazy week . In my last entry, I said that I ws going to stop using Fitday (for the week) and try to introduce a few more carbs to see what happens. It has been a little disconcerting.

First...even though I'm not using Fitday...I keep trying to calculate calories and carbs in my head. I'm just not confident that I'm doing okay...especially with the calories. I pretty well know that if I don't keep my calories below 1500...I'm not losing a thing . So...that strategy may be backfiring on me.

Second...I have been craving stuff like...

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I made it through the weekend. The girls made me a delicious LC dinner last night and it was so nice to be with them. On Saturday...I had a couple of set backs but, in retrospect...I think it was good.

First...I tried to make these LC cookie bars for dessert. They looked soooo good in the pan. I thought that I better have a little taste before serving them to my guests. YUUUUUCK! They were absolutely disgusting! So...I had to go to Plan B....ice cream and strawberries with whipped cream. I had a little serving of berries with the cream.

Second...I...

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for this weekend ahead. Grace to look outside of my struggles with food and exercise to reach out to others that are hurting and fighting battles of their own. It has been a tough week for me emotionally. I don't know if I have lost or gained weight...I just know that either has been hard fought and hard won. I felt like eating most evenings...trying to soothe the dis-ease within...looking to calm the restlessness and shift the acedia.
But there is no room for that this weekend. I need to be present for friends that will come for dinner tomorrow night. We don't know them very well....

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why do I feel so low??? It has even stopped raining but I still feel depressed. I stepped on the scale this morning...I snacked like crazy last night so I think I wanted to punish myself. It said 155 which is technically up a pound but that isn't enough to make me feel so crappy. I guess I thought that I would feel more satisfied being at this weight which is within 5 lbs of my first goal and 9 of my real goal. But no....I feel just like I did when I was 20 lbs heavier....now what is up with that???

Last night I couldn't stop eating. We cleaned out the fridge and I ate a bunch...

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I'm getting ready for family dinner night. Of course, we are having mexican. Pork fajitas, beef and bean tacos, all the yummy toppings (guacamole, salsa, cheese, sour cream, lettuce), refried beans, and Sangria. I am going to eat one LC tortilla and lots of the other stuff. I couldn't figure out how to make the Sangria LC. I was afraid that if I substituted Splenda for the sugar, it would taste funny and with all the liquor, fruit and wine (not to mention a little Sprite for the bubbly) I didn't think it would end up very LC anyway. So, I will have one glass as a treat because I am the cook...

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