Starting out
So.....my maid-of-honor dress for my best friends wedding doesn't fit anymore, and the weekend after her wedding, I have to fit into my own wedding dress. I think this constitutes emergency weight loss.
The low carb thing is new to me. I've done weight watchers. I lost 20 lbs on it about 2 years ago, but have now officially gained most of it back. I never thought this would happen.....none of us ever think that can happen....
I weighed almost 80 lbs when I was 15. I decided I wanted to be a "runner" and lost 50 lbs, mile by painful mile. Then, as high school turned into college, and college turned into entry-level, low-paying job with a bad relationship heaped on top, I gained most of THAT weight back.
In college, I weighed anywhere from 140 - 155. I look at photos of me then, and I looked so cute! Why did I walk around thinking everyone was staring at my fat stomach?? I just want to go back to those days and shake the crap out of myself! I ran 5-6 miles almost every day. But life was constant self-hatred and anger, usually because I ate every one of those darn mozzerella cheese sticks. I was so stupid.
I met my fiance about a year and a half ago. He happens to be more fond of desserts than I am, but he manages to stay within his normal weight range. He views eating as an activity and hobby...no naturally, we got along really well. But I continued to gain weight and he continued to weigh the same. MEN! We are talking about having a baby....lord only knows what I'd look like 9 months later if I started out at this weight.
I will NOT be a fat bride!!! I don't want to spend the next 20 years wishing my back fat didn't hang over the top of my dress. Or that I would've "posed a bit differently in this one," or that the "photographer could've made the effort to shoot me from a decent angle.....after all, its my wedding for heaven's sake!!!" I can hear me now....
So here I go, low-carbing it. Here's to hoping I won't have to stand at the alter beside my skinny blonde friend with safety pins holding my dress together in the back.
Cheers!
The low carb thing is new to me. I've done weight watchers. I lost 20 lbs on it about 2 years ago, but have now officially gained most of it back. I never thought this would happen.....none of us ever think that can happen....
I weighed almost 80 lbs when I was 15. I decided I wanted to be a "runner" and lost 50 lbs, mile by painful mile. Then, as high school turned into college, and college turned into entry-level, low-paying job with a bad relationship heaped on top, I gained most of THAT weight back.
In college, I weighed anywhere from 140 - 155. I look at photos of me then, and I looked so cute! Why did I walk around thinking everyone was staring at my fat stomach?? I just want to go back to those days and shake the crap out of myself! I ran 5-6 miles almost every day. But life was constant self-hatred and anger, usually because I ate every one of those darn mozzerella cheese sticks. I was so stupid.
I met my fiance about a year and a half ago. He happens to be more fond of desserts than I am, but he manages to stay within his normal weight range. He views eating as an activity and hobby...no naturally, we got along really well. But I continued to gain weight and he continued to weigh the same. MEN! We are talking about having a baby....lord only knows what I'd look like 9 months later if I started out at this weight.
I will NOT be a fat bride!!! I don't want to spend the next 20 years wishing my back fat didn't hang over the top of my dress. Or that I would've "posed a bit differently in this one," or that the "photographer could've made the effort to shoot me from a decent angle.....after all, its my wedding for heaven's sake!!!" I can hear me now....
So here I go, low-carbing it. Here's to hoping I won't have to stand at the alter beside my skinny blonde friend with safety pins holding my dress together in the back.
Cheers!
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