I last posted that I was finally under 200, well I binged my way back to 205. I am very ashamed of myself and wish I could figure out why I do what I do. I know that I can lose the weight, I have done it so many times in the past. I want to stop the roller coaster ride. I have to get my head wrapped around the fact that each day is a gift and I am tired of blowing it. I am really tired. Anyway today is a new day. Yesterday was a good day - I refuse to keep doing this, I refuse. I will conquer this thing, I will be successful. I will not give up.
I weighed 198.8 - I am so pleased about my progress. I have been really thinking about what got me in trouble in the first place (This time around). Because I have been here before. Lose 130lbs and gain back 140lbs. This time however I lost 114lbs and gained 57 or so pounds. The good news is for once I have not gained all of it back plus more the way I usually do. And for that I am elated. However, I started giving myself negative feedback. We really must be positive with ourselves and not beat ourselves up when we have set backs....
