Really Depressing

Yesterday was an okay day, still no energy. I took an energy pill and went to the gym to lift and try cardio. I did good but felt horrid. Felt okay the rest of the day. Did well calories wise as well but really upped the supplements taking everything I had - CoQ10, l-carn, l-glut, 5-htp, vit c, b-complex, iron, vit d, calcium, just to try to get my body to feel healthy.


Today I felt even more like sh*t. I have no energy. My sodium is low, I peeing like crazy. I tried cardio but felt terrible. I am probably fighting ketosis. I will not give in though. I'm forcing a bike ride tonight. I'v GAINED weight an last night was up to 172. My pants are tighter. Dont' know what I"m doing wrong but it may be the hormones I'm on.

I just stopped Provera and Estridol Saturday when my period started. Not sure if I'm withdrawing or what buy I'm sad and have been crying everyday!!! Geez. I need to cheer up.

Breakfast was 1 egg, 1/4 cup egg whites, 1 T flax, 1 T coconut oil. Had this yesterday too.
espresso iced.
Snack before working out was 7 almonds. I don't want anything now. I feel sick and terrible. I probably eat later but the thought of eating my steak kills me. I don't want anything. I just want to go home from work right now. I'll leave early since I took a short lunch.