Day 1 of my blog. The learning process begins. . .

This is my first journal entry. Although I have been keeping some journal entries on the daily plate, the LCF blog site is where I am going to store my journal from now on. First of all, here is a little info about me if you haven’t read about me on the LCF bulletin board before.

My food is on http://www.thedailyplate.com/diary/who/feather319.

I’m 24, 5’10’’ 155-168 pounds (morning and night).

My lowest I was 120. I started in 2002.

Highest 180 - prior to 2002

I've gained a significant amount of weight the last 2 years- 30+ pounds. I hate my hips thighs and butt. I haven't had a problem with cellulite since high school. Granted I am a lot stronger than my college years now but I don't like the fat accumulating. When I was super thin I restricted to a point of uncomfort. I ate 3000+ calories a day but I worked out 1.5-2 hours per day plus walked and road my bike everywhere on campus. I hardly ever drove my car. I hurt so bad during that time period as my body worked to keep every bit of strength it could.

Today I am less obsessive about couting carbs but watch my calories and watch what I eat. Binging however has become my problem. Before it was about me controlling food. Now, food controls me. After dinner is the worst.

My goal is to get back to where I was one year ago. 140-150 pounds – size 8. I am currently a size 12. This journal will be about my day and my thoughts.

About me: I work full time in technology at a large corporation in Iowa. I attend church and am active in a class called Christ Life Solutions. The program is designed to help you get out bad behaviors and thoughts and learn how to live through Christ and get over your bad thoughts about yourself. It is truly amazing. I’ve been though Phase 1 and learned a lot about why the way I am the way I am. The summer is a time off and phase 2 starts next fall. I also love fitness and health. Health is number one – the biochemistry behind food and the human body is amazing. I wish so much I would have gone into some kind of food chemistry but at least I can still learn about it today

My goals:

- Anabolic/Ketogenic Diet: Follow the CKD diet to a T.

- Eating Healthy

- Rebuild and Heal my metabolism

- To give up aspartame. I am almost though my batch of soda but after that, it is only splenda and stevia. I want to give up splenda but at this point there is no way.

- To get to size 8 – 145 pounds

- Stop binging on food.

A few more things about me. I have a condition called hyponatremia (chronic low sodium). I just found out I have hypothyroidism and possibly pre-mature ovarian failure. I take levothyroxine and just started Estridiol. I was on Premarin and about lost my mind! I am being tested to see if my period starts. I am deficient in vitamin D and iron despite taking supplements and a multivitamin. I have diarrhea a lot too. Food allergy? Not sure. I’ve had a colonoscopy but no luck finding anything. I also have Raynaud’s syndrome – my hands and feet are always purple and go numb often. It has gotten better with the warm weather but I hate how painful my feet and hands are sometimes. For the last couple years my cardiac enzyme has also been high. ??? Exercise?

I just want to be healthy, have energy, look great, and be a great person.

Okay, so on to my journal to discuss what I’m here for.

I am in a bit of a dilemma right now. I haven’t been doing my refeeds correctly. I’ve been doing more of a half day cheating but I always do a depletion workout the day AFTER a cheat – never the day of.

I want to try the CKD as I've read this is the best and I do well on a high fat high protein diet. I love that. I've been doing it for a while but have done it ALL WRONG!!!

Today was planning on doing a reefed day because my body is needing one. I've done pretty low carb all week but still to much to be keto. I wanted one badly yesterday but today the craving was not so much. I planned one and here is what it was and is going to be next time if my refeed is on a work day so: Breakfast is 2 eggs with 1 T flax, coffee w/ 1/2 & 1/2 (2 T). Pre-workout is 2-4 oz dannon activa light yogurt, 1/2 cup strawberries, 1/4 cup raspberries. Post workout is 1 scoop EAS Whey protein. Lunch is 1 piece of Ezekiel bread w/ 1/2 T coconut oil toasted, 1/2-1 can albacore tuna, 1/2 cup organic green beans (canned). Snack will be either 3/4 cup Sam's flax cereal w/ 6 oz blue bunny light yogurt or 1 serving of TLC 7 grain crackers w/ 6 oz blue bunny yogurt. If I'm still hungry after this snack I will eat some almonds.

Dinner: unsure right now. Organic stuffing made(not adding oil) or cereal, salmon, steamed veggies or salad.

I really don’t know about these ratios because my fat is still too high. I need to get my macros correct.

So, last minute today I changed and my reefed will be Friday or Saturday. I want to still have fuel for my Sunday leg day.

My workout today was during lunch. My plan was lifting chest & tris w/ some leg work (not much, my legs are still a little tender), and HIIT Cardio on the bike.

I ended up only lifting 45 minutes and added 15 minutes of lunges, dips, decline sit ups, and jumping jacks.

Lifting was:

Bench press with the bar 12 reps 70 pounds, 11 reps 85 pounds, 9 reps 85 pounds, 8 reps at 90 pounds.

Dips: ??? I put the machine on level 6. Don’t know how much of my body weight I was lifting. 12 reps 4 sets.

Incline bench: 8 reps 70 lbs, 10 reps 65 lbs, 12 reps 65 lbs.

Overhead dumbbells where you lay on the bench and put the weight over your head. It worked my chest and tris. Did 4 sets w/ 50 pounds

Tris with the rope 50 pounds 4 sets

Misc stuff between sets like ab work, leg lifts for ab work, front squats, etc. . just to keep my heart rate up.

Postworkout I’ve read to eat carbs with some whey even though you are on a low carb day but then I saw this site which told me not to. I’m glad I didn’t. Sometimes I think I need to because it helps me to recover. Today it wasn’t needed.

http://stronglifts.com/post-workout-...anabolic-diet/

My food today:

B: 2 eggs, 1 T flax Coffee from starbucks w/ half n half

S: ½ oz almonds, cauliflower (wanted some crunch).

Post workout: 1 1/8th scoop whey protein

Lunch: 2 oz organic ground turkey (mixed peanut butter in before I grilled it), 1 tsp coconut oil

Snack: ½ oz almonds

Before going home I’m stopping at starbucks again. Free coffee on Wednesdays!!! I always go twice a day. :-)

Dinner: rotisserie chicken thighs and some breast w/ salad and 1/2 cup green beans (canned)
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I read some of Twyla’s journal today. What an inspiration. Here is her quote:

“As I was recording these here in my journal, I had a flashback to when I had first begun experimenting with carb cycling and BFFM principles in May of 2006, and how on the days my Fitday would read 1900+ cals, I would panick just a little inside, admitting to myself that, yes, it was a high day, probably too high, and try to justify why, rationalize my macros, etc., to mitigate the guilt I was feeling over a high calorie day, promising "to do better tomorrow."”

I always feel like this. My friend emailed me good article I want to share. It is about body image.

http://www.oprah.com/omagazine/20080..._mission.jhtml

The article she shared was great. I am really hoping I get to that point. I am better than I use to be but still I feel guilty whenever I put food into my mouth, especially during a reefed.

Well, that's about all. I just went biking for an hour and ate dinner. Shower time to try to get out this icky pink that is in my hair from my disastrous home highlighting treatment I did last night. Silly me.