I seem to have a crazy big appetite

I read other folks blogs and they eat hardly anything compared to me. An egg cream for breakfast, some chicken for lunch a protein shake for supper. That kind of thing. Me, I have an egg cream for breakfast - made with super filling stuff like heavy cream, coconut oil, spoonful of flax, the works - but it still ain't enough and I'll be hungry again in a few hours. So then I'll eat some protein - maybe a few pieces of cold meat or fish - and a scoop of coconut oil and maybe some cheese and then I think, ooops, shouldn't this have a little bit of carbs in it to balance it as a snack so I have a few flowerets of broccoli and before I know it, it can get to lunch time and I may have already consumed over 1,200 cals. I'm not eating because I'm bored. I'm eating to feed my hunger and this means approx 2,000 cals a day, according to my fitday log. And I could actually eat even more than this if I wasn't looking at the calories and getting in a complete panic. Sometimes I go to bed feeling hungry but I won't eat anymore as I fear I've taken in too many calories.

I just don't seem to have that complete curb on hunger thing that everyone else has. The obvious explanation is because I'm BF'ing. I'm told that it means I need up to 500 cals a day more than I would normally. I've decided to ignore this as I just don't think it's the case with me. If it was, wouldn't it have meant that when I wasn't doing low carb (and BF'ing) and when I was taking in less cals, I'd have lost some weight? Mind boggles. The other explanation is that I'm not in ketosis. Which could be true as I've not tested with those funny sticks or anything, but I am keeping carbs to no more than 20 a day, I'm not having bars or shakes and the only sweetener I have is a dash of dv syrup in my egg cream in the morning. So surely I'm in ketosis?

Hmmm. I'm wondering if I should just give in and eat to feed my hunger even if sends the calories over a level I'm comfortable with (such as 2,300-500). Or do I reduce the carbs a wee bit more to see if I can get a bit deeper into ketosis which will hopefully curb my appetite. Or do I have to cut out completely the small dash of dv syrup in my egg cream - the only sweet thing I have in the day and the one thing I truly look forward to! Lordy. So much playing around with this woe to find out what works for me. The good news is I lost another inch from my waist. Not weighed myself as weigh in isn't until Sunday. Know for sure that I am a slow loser and put this down to having messed up my metabolism so much over the years with all the yo-yo-ing, plus not really doing enough exercise at the moment, plus, BF'ing and having a stubborn body that's saying 'lady, I am hanging onto this fat for now as I need it to make me some milk.'

So there's the rub. I'm the exception, not the norm. I feel hungrier than most on this woe. And I'm confused.