One more time.

You belong here with all of us if you are sick and tired of being controlled by food! Welcome and good luck!

Ok it is day two.......yesterday I did better than normal but long way to go. I have not actually officially started as I need to get my cupboards purged and get to the grocery store. I did get up today and clean out some old clothes from my closet and clean the spare room. I find that as I get my eating on track my house seems to follow suit.

I AM tired of food controlling me. I can think of tons of reasons WHY I allow it but really and truly those excuses are just my own desire to explain away my lack of self control. I don't mean will power but rather, taking responsibility for MY part in all this. I do have health issues here but most likely the health issues will resolve with the right diet.

One bite, tomorrow, I deserve it thinking have brought me to where I am.............I want to go somewhere else. I have the power to change myself. I need to reclaim that power. Today!

I guess you could say this is day three as the clock has passed midnight, but since I have yet to go to bed for me this is still part of day two.

My daughter (18) is on a road trip with high school friends, she is 5 states away (they made it halfway yesterday) and called tonight with fever, chills, vomiting, diarrhea, you name it. Well to top that off her boyfriend text her to say that he wants to break up. Poor darling.......I feel so helpless. Well, I tell you this to say I only want to eat.......everything, anything.........but I am not.

Since I found out just after dinner I have not put a bit of food in my mouth. We have decided to fly her home as the other girls need to get home in a reasonable time frame and her frequent bathroom stops are slowing them down. So they will drop her off in a strange town at the closest airport where she will be alone from 8 in the morning until the flight leaves at 5 in the evening.

I am unable to sleep as I am worried. I decided after tossing and turning in bed for an hour to just get up. My usual activity is to EAT. So here I am instead.

I am NOT hungry, if I only ate when I was hungry I would never have a weight problem to begin with. I want this. I really want this.

I am praying for strength.

Sorry to hear about your daughter. I'm sure she will be fine but I know how you feel. My daughter went through a nasty break up about three months ago and it was tough on me too. It is hard to see the ones we love suffer. Good for you finding something other than food to comfort you in the stress. Have a great day!

Well three days in and doing well. I have stayed the course even though my family hasn't. We are all planning to go full force after the weekend. We have a wedding out of town so thought it would be good to purge the house after that.

I did not want to wait so I am already full force ahead. It is kind of hard as my grocery store has the produce next to the bakery. I have to smell those DREADED smells everytime I get produce. But I have not given in. I am trying everyday to tell myself that this is about health and that based on that I have no choices.

Once I am home the temptation is gone. I am eating good food, enjoying it and reminding myself that eating wrong = pain. My joints hurt, everyday activities hurt, bending over, clean house, forget gardening. I want my life back. I want it more than anything else.