Worst day yet
Posted 10-28-2008 at 11:21 PM by Denise85
Talk about an emotional roller coaster!!!! I literally cried for 6 hours today. I never thought a meal plan could cause this much emotion. Fear, anxiety, anger, emptiness, depression, etc......I felt like a 2 year old throwing a temper tantrum at times, but I also felt the deep pain this ED has caused me. Everything is coming to the surface, and I don't know how to handle it. I just completely broke down, and went into panic mode. I feel a bit clmer now, and pray tomorrow goes better. I already figured out my meals and snacks, so hopefully I'll be ok with it. I've also planned out my day which helps a lot. I need structure. Without it I feel like my life is total chaos.
On the plus side I did follow the meal plan to the T, and I exercised a reasonable amount. It was scary, but I got though it. I also called a therapist at the clinic I see my psych and nutritionist through. I'm praying she has an opening, or can refer me to another Ed specialist there. I'm ready to learn the coping skills, follow the meal plan, and take my life back. I just need some guidance and help.
On the plus side I did follow the meal plan to the T, and I exercised a reasonable amount. It was scary, but I got though it. I also called a therapist at the clinic I see my psych and nutritionist through. I'm praying she has an opening, or can refer me to another Ed specialist there. I'm ready to learn the coping skills, follow the meal plan, and take my life back. I just need some guidance and help.
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That is great that you did break down and let yourself FEEL and not suppress it. Congratulations on going through all of this and yet still sticking to your meal plan.
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