I have been writing for a while now, not here but elsewhere I have been freaked out about posting my pic. This right here is a major hurdle I have crossed over. But I have promised myself this, I have accepted and embraced myself now, just as I am. I am looking forward to posting pics of my new self. That moment will be mind blowing for me. Just thinking about my present future, makes me smile.

Christmas in July

Just recently I have rid myself of old ways and ideas. I cannot understand for the life of me why this weight business has to be so difficult! It comes so easy for some and for others it is a pain in the ass, and I daresay that it is quite annoying. I suppose that I will need to take it in stride and accept my journey, for this is what this change is, a journey. Putting self first for once, a definite reachable goal.

Interesting how life tends to leave its impact on our minds, hearts and bodies, transcending all that we have come to know and understand. I will not lie,...

Christmas in July

What can I say? I came upon this this by chance. I was looking for 144.5 lbs online to see if I could post it as a background on my computer as a means to get it through my thick head that the weight needs to come off.


I have put on about 40 lbs in 5 years. My heaviest has been 297, thanks to my love for ramen " a bad and wicked thing this". At any rate, I have come a long way in many ways and this is the last thing, the most important aspect of self I need to conquer. Been on this journey a while now. I am hoping to find good people here. A good support system....

Christmas in July