Monday

I've had a really hard day, it's just been an emotional rollercoaster, and long. I've done ok with food though

B: Bacon, 2 sausages & mushrooms
L: 2 dark rye Ryvita w/butter, and peperami
D: None yet because I just feel sick..

Way too much coffee, but no alcohol, although I could kill for a bottle of Vodka right now.

I walked to my work placement from the train station (almost 2 miles) in 25 minutes (IN THE RAIN! AND at 8am!). I'm doing a 5 week work based learning module at university, so I'm working in a microbiology lab for 5 weeks. Working with and thinking about bacteria all day somehow puts me off eating.

I just feel like crying. I so want to get drunk, but.. it's not worth it is it. It will only make me feel worse and the last week will have been for nothing.

So, I'm going to get a bath and go to bed instead and hope that tomorrow is better.

Ergh I hate getting up at 5. It takes 2 hours on the bus/train to get there, then 25 minutes walking, work 8 hours, then 2 hours to get home... only 4 more weeks to go though!