another day in paradise
Posted 01-13-2009 at 07:02 PM by aussie_kat
well i just found the blog feature and gather this will be the best way to follow my journey.
I have been doing this for years. I joined in 2004, went from around 90 kg to 70kg, put back on 10kg, met my husband, but on another 50kg. so here i am today at 123.5kg. My highest was 128.8 i think. I have been stuffing around for years trying to get this weight back off, i have so much less mobility now, it hurts to walk, its hurts to stand, it hurt to freaking lay down and sleep.
I have been back to healthy eating since the 8th. I got home on the 7th (the day before my birthday) and confronted my husband about stuff i had found on the computer. some inappropriate websurfing, only to have a fight and find out that he is no longer attracted to me. ok so i thought, really really not a great thing for him to say, he should love me anyway. but i thought about it some more, and came to the realisation that i really havent been caring about myself. I would be too embarrased to meet up with an ex like this, why should i not make an effort for myself and my husband. so i have stayed on plan. lost quite a bit of weight and starting to feel good again.
well this morning, i jumped on the comp and looked at the history, 5 days after we have decided to both make an effort and save our marriage and again, 2 days of him surfing inappropriate sites. well here i am back at the start. I have booked us into a councillor for tomorrow night, and will go from there. But now the goal of getting back to 80kg is for me. If I am going to be single I want to feel my best. so this is where the journey starts. My priority is me, making myself feel like a million dollars again and my second priority is working out whether my marriage is worth saving or whether to get out and start a new life on my own. I have no children, we have 2 dogs and a cat. we do only have 1 car between us, so we will need to buy another car before we can split. but i need to spend the next few weeks building up my confidence again, and finding away to work through this all. I think i need to do some more research on the marriage side of things. But with the weight side, im quite happy with how its going. Though honestly i should eat more today. I have had a few sips out of a pepsi bottle and its 12pm. its not exactly a good start to the day.
I have been doing this for years. I joined in 2004, went from around 90 kg to 70kg, put back on 10kg, met my husband, but on another 50kg. so here i am today at 123.5kg. My highest was 128.8 i think. I have been stuffing around for years trying to get this weight back off, i have so much less mobility now, it hurts to walk, its hurts to stand, it hurt to freaking lay down and sleep.
I have been back to healthy eating since the 8th. I got home on the 7th (the day before my birthday) and confronted my husband about stuff i had found on the computer. some inappropriate websurfing, only to have a fight and find out that he is no longer attracted to me. ok so i thought, really really not a great thing for him to say, he should love me anyway. but i thought about it some more, and came to the realisation that i really havent been caring about myself. I would be too embarrased to meet up with an ex like this, why should i not make an effort for myself and my husband. so i have stayed on plan. lost quite a bit of weight and starting to feel good again.
well this morning, i jumped on the comp and looked at the history, 5 days after we have decided to both make an effort and save our marriage and again, 2 days of him surfing inappropriate sites. well here i am back at the start. I have booked us into a councillor for tomorrow night, and will go from there. But now the goal of getting back to 80kg is for me. If I am going to be single I want to feel my best. so this is where the journey starts. My priority is me, making myself feel like a million dollars again and my second priority is working out whether my marriage is worth saving or whether to get out and start a new life on my own. I have no children, we have 2 dogs and a cat. we do only have 1 car between us, so we will need to buy another car before we can split. but i need to spend the next few weeks building up my confidence again, and finding away to work through this all. I think i need to do some more research on the marriage side of things. But with the weight side, im quite happy with how its going. Though honestly i should eat more today. I have had a few sips out of a pepsi bottle and its 12pm. its not exactly a good start to the day.
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Good luck, Mobycat -- both with the diet and with, ultimately, your marriage. I weighed 206 lbs. when I first started on low-carb, and feeling that my husband was no longer attracted to me was a large part of the reason. Ironically, he was also very much overweight, no longer even resembling the man I'd married more than 30 years before. We talked out our problems, read Dr. Atkins's book together and began a new life that included him losing more than 40 lbs. and me losing 60 lbs. Almost 12 years later we're still happily together, still following a low-to-moderate-carbohydrate way of life. Sometimes it takes a crisis to bring a dying marriage back to life. I hope that'll be the case with yours.
I do worry, though, about that few sips out of a Pepsi. Please don't set yourself up to fail. You really must eat regularly and well to be successful in a low-carb way of life. |
 
Updated 01-15-2009 at 12:32 AM by enelkay |
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thanks for your story enelkay
 its great to see that it can work after such an upset. And so lovely to see you worked on it all together. and yes a little more planning has been a lot better, making sure real food is there at all times. Again thankyou, you look very happy and wonderful in your pic |
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