Ugh why can't I just do this?? I have not eaten really badly but certainly not clean and didn't count my carbs and I have gained. I am so mad at myself. My new rule - no eating after work. I tend to want to binge then so no more! It's not lie I am hungry then I just want to eat.

Today:
B: Coffe w/ hc and 3 hard boiled eggs
D:Chicken breast with 1 slice of cheese bacon and lettuce with a little ranch dressing
Water water water

g8rchic

I last posted that I was finally under 200, well I binged my way back to 205. I am very ashamed of myself and wish I could figure out why I do what I do. I know that I can lose the weight, I have done it so many times in the past. I want to stop the roller coaster ride. I have to get my head wrapped around the fact that each day is a gift and I am tired of blowing it. I am really tired. Anyway today is a new day. Yesterday was a good day - I refuse to keep doing this, I refuse. I will conquer this thing, I will be successful. I will not give up.

fmtblake