darn it...please pick me up, dust me off and set me off on the right track again...

[Jody100467]

I just need to hear its ok, I screwed up, sure - but its just not that bad...and I can just pick up where I am and continue on....

I re-inducted on Tuesday, April 22nd (almost three weeks ago) and as of yesterday morning I was down from 167.5 to 157 so it was quite a successful induction...10.5 pounds in two and a half weeks. I knew yesterday was going to be difficult - we had a first communion, my hubby just doesn't understand the diet and wanted me to eat some of the food because he thought that it was rude for me to not eat. So I took veggies and salad - but the chicken was breaded and there was some mushroom gravy for it...and I did have some. I figured its not the right thing to eat but it wasn't sugar and I planned to just pick up where I left off. Before you know it they set a peice of cake in front of me and I ate it. I felt it would be rude if I didn't and to be truthful...I really enjoyed it. AND I had coffee with sugar in it. Then last night I had a bowl of oatmeal (with sugar and 1/2% milk) I hadn't had oatmeal in THREE YEARS!!! Since I started this woe three years ago come May 15th. This morning I woke up and ate an Atkins bar to safisfy the desire for something sweet and I think it worked. Then I ate some leftover gyro meat and had a McDonald's coffee with creamer and splenda. We are going to my mom in laws for Mother's day dinner and I know that I should be ok with the eating there. I feel like I am already back on plan and I think that I will do meat and egg Monday and Tuesday to get me back into ketosis but I do feel bad...I let myself down. My lowest weight so far was 147 lbs and I am ten pounds from that. I really want to be there by July 1st and I know that I can...but I can't do this. I know that I am probably being awfully hard on myself but I can't help it. I know how bad the sugar is for my body and once I have it I have to fight the stinkin' thinkin' of hey...I had some...I might as well satisfy every urge before I get back to it and I know that is the wrong way to go at it. I am really trying to avoid that thought process.

Do you think that I undid all of my good eating? I know that I had lost 10 and I know from my own experience that I am probably up three pounds (I just couldn't weigh myself this morning) and half of it will be gone right away and in a few days I will be back where I was before my miss-step but in spite of losing the 10 lbs the inches hadn't quite caught up yet...as long as I get right back to it do you think they will still catch up? I worked so hard at this...I really earned it.

So slap me upside the head and tell me to get my A** back on track, ok! I just need a little help from my low carb friends. I do know that I didn't lose much progress and that in a few days I will be back in ketosis and back on the trail to the end of my journey...I just need some one to tell me that I am right, that its ok that I messed up and that I can just get back on the road again. Maybe a hug wouldn't hurt either.

Thanks for listening (or reading lol),

Jody

[Houston Heather]

Jody,
You tripped, that's all. You may have some scary scale readings for a week or so while you get rid of all the carb-bloat and water retention. You'll want to drink a lot of water for the next day or so.

One thing about this way of eating, you may have to get assertive. You have to say "NO, I can't eat that, sorry." I will often say, with a smile, "I've lost 25 pounds so far eating the way I have. I don't want to mess it up."

I cannot eat sugar or I will end up in big trouble, weighing more than my before photo and absolutely miserable. I can't tell you what to tell DH, except to ask what is more important: Your health or "manners". I tend to be pretty pushy about this way of eating, though. DH had actually begged me to get back on Atkins for years and I finally did for my own reasons.

You were smart to realize your carb addictions were flaring up again and to whack 'em dead with the Atkins bar. I use mine "In Case of Emergency".

Here's a little cheerleader chant for you: Go Jody Go Jody Go! You can do it!

[Jody100467]

Thanks Heather...I know that you are right. And to be absolutely honest with you...it was just an easy reason for me to cheat - I know that I could have said no and they would have understood. And I should have. But I didn't. I just need to say no.

In any case I am trying to feel better about my poor choice and I guess I need to leave it in the past and move on...just start eating my way again. Tomorrow...actually the next meal...is a new moment to live for. I just need to keep making the right choices.

Thanks for the cheer sweetie...I will try to hear it the next time I am tempted.

Jody

[2big4mysize]

glad you were able to recover.



Have you ask friends family and coworkers to be part of your support team?

When you accepted the invite to the first communion did you ask about the menu? We need to plan because life is full of events and we need to celebrate the love and friendships we share with the folk and not the high carb foods served there. When you ask about the menu offer to bring a nioce low carb dish you can eat and share with the group. Most hosts will not turn down free good tasting foods.

remeber it isn't rude not to eat posion and processed carbs are posion to your system right now. bet you felt sick after eating that sugar shock.

[Houston Heather]

We all make mistakes.

[whatjelly]

those social things are tough... At work, we recently had a potluck... sombody brought in homemade chicken noodle soup... so I had a little. The thing is she was sitting right there... I didn't really like it, but I didn't want to hurt her feelings. So it was so bland that I put some saltines in it (which helped)...

Anyway, I guess once in while it'd be ok to have stuff like that... It keeps your body wondering, and takes it off guard a little... just so long as we don't go overboard, and get right back to it... (the right woe)...

like I said... those social things are tough...

[2big4mysize]

Originally Posted by whatjelly

those social things are tough... At work, we recently had a potluck... sombody brought in homemade chicken noodle soup... so I had a little. The thing is she was sitting right there... I didn't really like it, but I didn't want to hurt her feelings. So it was so bland that I put some saltines in it (which helped)...

Anyway, I guess once in while it'd be ok to have stuff like that... It keeps your body wondering, and takes it off guard a little... just so long as we don't go overboard, and get right back to it... (the right woe)...

like I said... those social things are tough...

see this is the kind of thing having followeed Dr Atkins DANDR advice about recruiting family, friends, and coworkers as part of your support network would have come in handy. Your fellow coworkers in your support network would have removed that soup from your hands and reminded you you were on a low carb plan and that food was not low carb thus saving you from those saltines and soup.

Sounds embarrassing, but I had folk at a church dinner before I could even say no thank you inform the server "she can't have that. it isn't allowed on her diet you should know that!" And then everybody congratualted me on my big weight loss and those not knowing what I was doing wanted to know how I had lost all that weight so even more of my fellow church members learned about Atkins low carbing and the allowed OWL foods.

Of course as you progress on your diet you need to be sure your support network knows you can have new foods as I discovered when my little newphew who bravely announced at a resturant he was treating me too "I'll eat your french fries for you cause you can't have them" the yr before announced "YOU can't eat that!" when I had winter squash the next yr at his house.

[whatjelly]

I don't know about anybody else, but I really wouldn't want anybody else to have to worry about what I put in my mouth. Ultimately, it's my own decision. And lets face it, if we chose the behavior, we also chose the consequence {both good and bad}.

Most people don't really understand the whole LC thing anyway. I gave up trying to explain it.

For example: recently [I'm sure we all have a similar story] was talking with a gal at work, and I don't like to say "Atkins" but do say low carb... (Because I just get sick of defending it all the time)... anyway, she did put it together and asked me if I was "doing Atkins"... so I said I was.

She went on to say that it doesn't work because once you go off it, you gain all the weight back... I was like, "Why go off it? Why go back to eating processed crap/junk and let the weight come back on?" Her response was that if I didn't I would surely have a heart-attack and die.

Well, my point was: I don't really advertise it a lot... Most people just don't get "it". And I don't expect them to...

I'll eat what I want, and it's nobody's responsibility...

Anyway Jody100467 just get up, dust off, and jump back on the wagon ~ before it runs over you!

[Houston Heather]

I guess we cancel each other out.

You can't shut me up about Atkins.

My favorite was a guy in kidney failure (from drinking and eating carbs by his own admission) who told me I was going to kill myself eating "This way". He then proceeded to lecture me on the virtues of a low-calorie, low fat diet which HE even admitted he can't follow.

[slimlizzie]

I am so glad I found you guys! I really needed to read these posts today THANK YOU!

[Diana]

Congrats for picking yourself back up, but please let me suggest you do induction by the book. Doing a drastic diet suck as egg & meat will only cause cravings- boredom and next thing you know you will be cheating again.

I have seen it a 1000x.

[slimlizzie]

Diana, I am up for any suggestions...give me a typical day on induction.