May is here - Atkins 72!

[lola001]

Hello Everybody

What a glorius Sunday! it is winter here but the sun was out. I spent the whole day out in the sun reading, taking photos of the wildlife outside my fence and just enjoyed being free.
I will post more pics of the lovely sights around my home- now that I've figured out how to post pics.
Cheryl- yay on the losses front!
Hope - yup stress was killing me and alienating me from my family. I had to make the call when I did.
Pam - after living in an apartment for 11 years I am enjoying the freedom of gardening. I've started a veggie and herb garden. Will post a few pics: I've got radish, carrots and tomato plants growing from seed.
My herb garden consists of rosemary, thyme, mint, stevia, strawberry, mustard, and spring onion. I am so loving this garden of mine.

Enjoy starting up your container garden Cheryl!

Hiya Donna - hope all is well.
Have a great week everybody!

[CherylB]

Originally Posted by pcaltman

Hi all,

Hanging at the same weight 154.5. Oh well. Still doing well. Starting to pack So excited. Holding my breath that nothing goes wrong, you never know when you are working with a bank.

Cheryl - love container gardens. We built raised bed last year and they were awesome. I love tomatoes. We grow a lot and freeze them whole for chili over the winter. Love that. I grew a lot (way to much) zucchini last year. Still have some in the freeze. Hubby told me to tone down on that one Unfortunately we haven't planted our garden this year because we are moving. I did get some tomatos that came up again form last year. So we are digging them up and putting them in pots today to bring them to the new house. At least we can make chili this fall and winter and save on money I really want lettuce and carrots in pots on the new deck. So give me 4 weeks and I will plant. I love it.......

Well have a great Saturday everyone.

Dig up those 'maters and taken them with you! I'm glad to hear you say you enjoy container gardening. I don't know how tomatoes will do; how deep the containers need to be for adequate, sturdy plants that produce well? I won't plant anything that is too wild and grows on vines (like zukes, cukes and squashes.) I'll maybe plant some green beens, peas, tomatoes, and I'd like to get a little hodge-podge herbal garden growing in my bay window in the kitchen.

Keep on trucking, lady! The move will happen and things will be hunky-dorey.

Originally Posted by lola001

Hello Everybody

What a glorius Sunday! it is winter here but the sun was out. I spent the whole day out in the sun reading, taking photos of the wildlife outside my fence and just enjoyed being free.
I will post more pics of the lovely sights around my home- now that I've figured out how to post pics.
Cheryl- yay on the losses front!
Hope - yup stress was killing me and alienating me from my family. I had to make the call when I did.
Pam - after living in an apartment for 11 years I am enjoying the freedom of gardening. I've started a veggie and herb garden. Will post a few pics: I've got radish, carrots and tomato plants growing from seed.
My herb garden consists of rosemary, thyme, mint, stevia, strawberry, mustard, and spring onion. I am so loving this garden of mine.

Enjoy starting up your container garden Cheryl!

Hiya Donna - hope all is well.
Have a great week everybody!

I don't know if I ever realized that this was your first house, Lola. How great that you get to garden! But you say it's winter, so all this gardening is going on indoors right now? I did that my first winter I was getting really into gardening. I just wanted to plant everything! I started everything from seed and loved to watch it come up and get older and ready for transplant in the Spring. Living things are so good for the soul.

Speaking of living things, I bought two gold fish. I don't think the bowl I have them in is going to be adequate. Water is already getting hazy. I was shooting for a low-maintenance addition to our little family but this may not be the right way to go about this. Will look for a larger bowl.

I was at the state park with my family all day long and when I got home I just did the dishes, ate the rest of the macaroni salad (dreamfields) and now tomorrow I can start over very cleanly. I ate nothing off-plan but the dreamfields isn't conducive to fast losses. I want to get back in gear again!

Parade going down my street, directly past my house tomorrow. Hope it's fun and loud! Will be my very first parade viewed from my own home.

[pcaltman]

Happy Memorial Day

[Krissyp]

Hi everyone. I have lots of catching up to do on your posts! I did see Lola's news. Good for you! Life is too short to be miserable.

I just got home from my girls weekend in Florida. We had lots of fun. I didn't do low carb at all. Ate whatever. Now is the big test! I must get back on track today. This is when I have failed in the past. I feel good though. Very motivated to get started again!

We were lucky to miss the tropical storm stuff in Florida. It was north of us and we had excellent weather. Its pretty gross here at home. So humid!

Hope you all have a good day. I'm going to finish reading everyone's posts!

[hopetolose]

Good morning to all. Hope everyone had a great holiday.
I was a little off program with social events, but am back on track this morning, so am hoping scale will want to cooperate.
Really seems good to be back on track.
Have a great day,
Hope

[ebeads]

Welcome back from the holiday everyone ... for those who strayed a little, hope you can get back with it! We do live in a place where socializing means eating.... so we pay the price.

I am having a nice side benefit , I am able to work more hours in my studio. I put in a good day today and am paying for it with very achy shoulders. But I am proud. I also cooked up all my chicken and cut it up for easy portion control. I do better if I do not have to "stop and cook" each time. ( warming up under the broiler doesn't count as cooking heheh).

Looking forward to everyone's posts!

[CherylB]

Originally Posted by Krissyp

Hi everyone. I have lots of catching up to do on your posts! I did see Lola's news. Good for you! Life is too short to be miserable.

I just got home from my girls weekend in Florida. We had lots of fun. I didn't do low carb at all. Ate whatever. Now is the big test! I must get back on track today. This is when I have failed in the past. I feel good though. Very motivated to get started again!

We were lucky to miss the tropical storm stuff in Florida. It was north of us and we had excellent weather. Its pretty gross here at home. So humid!

Hope you all have a good day. I'm going to finish reading everyone's posts!

Glad you had fun, and yes it has been "gross" up here while you were gone! Now that this storm front has come through, it will be much nicer. Welcome home and good luck getting back in the groove again.

Originally Posted by hopetolose

Good morning to all. Hope everyone had a great holiday.
I was a little off program with social events, but am back on track this morning, so am hoping scale will want to cooperate.
Really seems good to be back on track.
Have a great day,
Hope

I had a great one! Glad you had a nice one, too. Have a wonderful night!

Originally Posted by ebeads

Welcome back from the holiday everyone ... for those who strayed a little, hope you can get back with it! We do live in a place where socializing means eating.... so we pay the price.

I am having a nice side benefit , I am able to work more hours in my studio. I put in a good day today and am paying for it with very achy shoulders. But I am proud. I also cooked up all my chicken and cut it up for easy portion control. I do better if I do not have to "stop and cook" each time. ( warming up under the broiler doesn't count as cooking heheh).

Looking forward to everyone's posts!

Studio? Did you share this about yourself before or am I missing something? What is it you do? (Pry, pry.) Wasn't that some storm we had tonight? My sister in Bristol and Woodbury only got rain and wind, and so did my Mom in Watertown but here in my little town we got small hail! It looked "wizard of oz" like when it was approaching. Freaky!

It's after midnight but I just wanted to touch base. I wrote on my journal and thought I'd get all caught up with everyone today but NO. Perhaps tomorrow, God willing.

Hugs and love to everyone this evening.

[pcaltman]

Hi all,

Nothing new. End of school stuff, graduation, college orientation and moving Busy, busy, busy......Doing ok. 156 last 2 days but tom around. UGH!!!!

[ebeads]

Good morning everyone. Cheryl I live at artspace in hartford ... it is 50 live-in studio situations. Some of them look like regular apartments, some don't. Mine doesn't LOL. I do paintings, though not so actively any more. Modern, splashy stuff. I have an OLD blog with some images. It is not a commercial site, nothing for sale there so I think I can post it:

art-has-wings

my works are photoshopped on to room views ... those are not " real " rooms hehhe.

I have done the craft fairs with hand made jewelry for years, but that business has gone all to heck for so many reasons. I stopped doing the shows and am trying to build up gradually online. I sell on Etsy. I will not post the link here because that one IS commercial and these forums are not for advertizing.

As I have said elsewhere , this last winter was holy heck for me. I spent months not really being able to produce much. Now that I am getting back on track, it feels good to be productive again. The economy sucks so not much is translating into income right now, but at least I feel good about what I am doing.

I am about to have early lunch of pan fried salmon YUMMM.

Wishing everyone a great day.

[lola001]

Hi Everybody!
Glad to see you all around.

Cheryl- actually my garden is outdoors. Out here winter is not as severe as you guys get it. Temperatures get pretty low but just so you know there are the occasional periods when we can run around in a pair of shorts!
My garden is still green and flowers are still blooming. My radishes are ready for picking.
I need to trim my rose bush in the front garden.
I will take pics and post. It is a lovely place to live in all year round and since I've handed in that resignation letter, I am pretty happy with my world.

Take care all.

Have a great Thursday. Would you believe another two days and it is weekend! Two days of sun and relaxation and a bit of gardening.

[Krissyp]

Hi.
I'm happy to report that I got on the scale yesterday and was only up .8 after my trip. Today I was down another 3 pounds. I've been on a water fast (Tuesday and Wednesday). We'll see if I'm up to it again today. I'm trying to detox after my trip. I must have been holding on to lots of water!

On the bad side of things I am having major problems with my husband. I put small air conditioners in my kids rooms knowing he didn't want them to have them. He won't talk to me now. This was a reminder that we have such different views on everything. I don't think we will ever see eye to eye. We did marriage counseling back in Nov & Dec. It was the most stressful experience. I am contemplating seperation. It really sucks because I love him but I can no longer live in a constant state of anxiety. I don't know what to do. For right now I'm just living and taking care of my kids. He can keep ignoring me I guess. This has been the most stressful time of my life. That includes when my 4 year old had cancer.

Today I have to go to see a dermatologist. I have a growth under me arm. Not in my armpit...lower more next to my boob but directly on the side of my body. Its red and sore. Its been here for about 3-4 weeks. At first I thought it was a boil and then a spider bite. I have no idea. Hopefully its nothing bad. My husband didn't say anything to me about it. Even after I sat in front of him last night with a warm compress on it. Not even a good luck today.

I better run. Thanks for listening/reading again everyone! Its good to get my sadness out. I'll let you know how the doctor goes. Its not until this afternoon.

Have a good day!

[Krissyp]

Geesh...I sound like a pirate! Thats my arm not "me arm"!

[pcaltman]

Krissy - I hope things work out for you. We have a rule in our house and we had this from day one so there is very little aguements between us. If one of the 2 of us say no or don't want something they win out, period!!!!!!! You have all the right to try to change their minds, but the no wins every time. With that no, you need to understand the reason why, that helps a lot. I am the controlling one in our family and my hubby is laid back. I take steps back all the time and have to remember he is half the kids parent too and has just as much right to have or not have something as I do. Not fair to always do things my way (even though I am right). Trust me if he sees how pationate you are about something he will change his mind, or you will change yours knowing how he feels. On the other end, over the years I have talked to my husband about how we fight. Men in general have a tendency to walk away and want to cool down or let us cool down. I kept telling him women need to talk things out and if he ignores me I get more mad. I still can't, to this day, firgure out how to change that one:/ Men...... Good luck take a deep breath and try to talk to him. It's worth it for the kids.

So hanging in there everybody. Not much in the house to eat and trying not to go to the store because we are moving. Got to go see ya.....

[ebeads]

Hello everyone. Gosh Krissy , hope your medical issue is easily cured and that you can strike some type of a balance with your spouse. I had a very stressful marriage for 17 years. Have been divorced 15 ... not sure which is more difficult, frankly. Each of us has to cobble what works best for ourselves. Best of luck.

I am enjoying my lack of appetite. It is wonderful to just manage my food on plan and eat without all the craziness of cravings and the bottomless pit. Tomorrow is scale day. I feel smaller, we shall see what the numbers say.

Wishing everyone the best , today.

[lola001]

Hi All

Krissy - special hugs for you. and a prayer for that boil - hope it goes down without a fuss. About hubby I have no solution. Just know that when you do not speak you cannot fix anything. Give him a hug when he gets home this evening and if that does not get him speaking well then- I have no solution. Arguments are inevitable but once we stop speaking or touching then there is no hope. At least you still feel love towards him. Good luck hun.
Ebeads- yay for feeling smaller! your living arrangement sounds so 60s hippy style - meant in the most creative, artistic sense. Would love the opportunity to find my artistic personality.

I have started taking pics with hubby's camera of my kitty and the wilderness outside my front door. - It is about as artistic as I can get right now.

Pam - sounds like almost everybody not in menopause has TOM or Bernice visiting.
Cheryl- hiya - hope you are getting some rest.
Hope - I know about those social events. I had a guest who brought over a case of portuguese beer - he only stayed a night. I've just been drinking the stuff because it is there.
Happy days all!
Will post a pic of the family of guinea fowls that prance around my front yard.

[ebeads]

Hehehe yeah lola ... hippieish indeed ( without the drugs and free love though ... and I do BATHE daily *smile*) but my priorities are studio-ishness trumps interior decorating. :-)

[CherylB]

Originally Posted by pcaltman

Hi all,

Nothing new. End of school stuff, graduation, college orientation and moving Busy, busy, busy......Doing ok. 156 last 2 days but tom around. UGH!!!!

Staying the same is better than going up, with all you're going through right now. Keep your chin up and be happy! You are and will be victorious!

Originally Posted by ebeads

Good morning everyone. Cheryl I live at artspace in hartford ... it is 50 live-in studio situations. Some of them look like regular apartments, some don't. Mine doesn't LOL. I do paintings, though not so actively any more. Modern, splashy stuff. I have an OLD blog with some images. It is not a commercial site, nothing for sale there so I think I can post it:

art-has-wings

my works are photoshopped on to room views ... those are not " real " rooms hehhe.

I have done the craft fairs with hand made jewelry for years, but that business has gone all to heck for so many reasons. I stopped doing the shows and am trying to build up gradually online. I sell on Etsy. I will not post the link here because that one IS commercial and these forums are not for advertizing.

As I have said elsewhere , this last winter was holy heck for me. I spent months not really being able to produce much. Now that I am getting back on track, it feels good to be productive again. The economy sucks so not much is translating into income right now, but at least I feel good about what I am doing.

I am about to have early lunch of pan fried salmon YUMMM.

Wishing everyone a great day.

I think that's so cool! I will go to the site after I get caught up on all these posts. I can't wait to see your work! So do you like in this 50+ Studio apartment or just use it as a studio?

Hope your Salmon comes out good!

Originally Posted by lola001

Hi Everybody!
Glad to see you all around.

Cheryl- actually my garden is outdoors. Out here winter is not as severe as you guys get it. Temperatures get pretty low but just so you know there are the occasional periods when we can run around in a pair of shorts!
My garden is still green and flowers are still blooming. My radishes are ready for picking.
I need to trim my rose bush in the front garden.
I will take pics and post. It is a lovely place to live in all year round and since I've handed in that resignation letter, I am pretty happy with my world.

Take care all.

Have a great Thursday. Would you believe another two days and it is weekend! Two days of sun and relaxation and a bit of gardening.

Sounds like Winters were in San Antonio Texas. Sometimes we rode around with the top down and went tubing in winter time. Well, maybe not tubing. It got cold sometimes. I remember one ice storm, but nothing lasts down there. It melts fast and then it's back to be just colder than summer (which is a dang blessing down there!) Glad you get to continue outdoor gardening.

I love this new happier you! Looking forward to the pics.

Originally Posted by Krissyp

Hi.
I'm happy to report that I got on the scale yesterday and was only up .8 after my trip. Today I was down another 3 pounds. I've been on a water fast (Tuesday and Wednesday). We'll see if I'm up to it again today. I'm trying to detox after my trip. I must have been holding on to lots of water!

On the bad side of things I am having major problems with my husband. I put small air conditioners in my kids rooms knowing he didn't want them to have them. He won't talk to me now. This was a reminder that we have such different views on everything. I don't think we will ever see eye to eye. We did marriage counseling back in Nov & Dec. It was the most stressful experience. I am contemplating seperation. It really sucks because I love him but I can no longer live in a constant state of anxiety. I don't know what to do. For right now I'm just living and taking care of my kids. He can keep ignoring me I guess. This has been the most stressful time of my life. That includes when my 4 year old had cancer.

Today I have to go to see a dermatologist. I have a growth under me arm. Not in my armpit...lower more next to my boob but directly on the side of my body. Its red and sore. Its been here for about 3-4 weeks. At first I thought it was a boil and then a spider bite. I have no idea. Hopefully its nothing bad. My husband didn't say anything to me about it. Even after I sat in front of him last night with a warm compress on it. Not even a good luck today.

I better run. Thanks for listening/reading again everyone! Its good to get my sadness out. I'll let you know how the doctor goes. Its not until this afternoon.

Have a good day!

I never knew about your son having cancer at age 4. Is he okay since the treatment? How old is he now? Does breast cancer run in your family? I'm so glad you are getting it checked out.

I'm sickened about your stressful marriage. I've been in unhappy unions in my life and that is why I stayed single and solitary after my husband finally passed in 2000. Relationships always start out so wonderfully! Oh, how happy we all are. But my luck sucks or I'm just toxic in relationships or I'm just a lousy judge of character or I have too low of a self esteem or.... you fill in the blank. I'm DONE.

Do what you have to do in order to have a happy life and some measure of tranquility in your home. A house is not a home if there is nothing but tension inside. If you've sought out counselling, at least you've tried. Sometimes things are too broken to fix. How long have you been together? Will he fight you for the kids?

Please tell us what the Dr says about that lump!

Originally Posted by Krissyp

Geesh...I sound like a pirate! Thats my arm not "me arm"!

I was so wrapped up in the content of what you were saying that I didn't even notice that! Funny.

[CherylB]

Originally Posted by pcaltman

Krissy - I hope things work out for you. We have a rule in our house and we had this from day one so there is very little aguements between us. If one of the 2 of us say no or don't want something they win out, period!!!!!!! You have all the right to try to change their minds, but the no wins every time. With that no, you need to understand the reason why, that helps a lot. I am the controlling one in our family and my hubby is laid back. I take steps back all the time and have to remember he is half the kids parent too and has just as much right to have or not have something as I do. Not fair to always do things my way (even though I am right). Trust me if he sees how pationate you are about something he will change his mind, or you will change yours knowing how he feels. On the other end, over the years I have talked to my husband about how we fight. Men in general have a tendency to walk away and want to cool down or let us cool down. I kept telling him women need to talk things out and if he ignores me I get more mad. I still can't, to this day, firgure out how to change that one:/ Men...... Good luck take a deep breath and try to talk to him. It's worth it for the kids.

So hanging in there everybody. Not much in the house to eat and trying not to go to the store because we are moving. Got to go see ya.....

Wow! That would NOT work in many situations between many husbands and wives. The "pair" have to be just right for that to work, but I admire you for making it work in your household. If I had done that in my relationships, I'd have been under their thumb even more than I already was. (I'm speaking of the man in TX.) My husband wasn't that way, but I was the step mom to his kids and I was the outsider. Still at a disadvantage. See? Sucky choices, lead by my heart and never my head.

Originally Posted by ebeads

Hello everyone. Gosh Krissy , hope your medical issue is easily cured and that you can strike some type of a balance with your spouse. I had a very stressful marriage for 17 years. Have been divorced 15 ... not sure which is more difficult, frankly. Each of us has to cobble what works best for ourselves. Best of luck.

I am enjoying my lack of appetite. It is wonderful to just manage my food on plan and eat without all the craziness of cravings and the bottomless pit. Tomorrow is scale day. I feel smaller, we shall see what the numbers say.

Wishing everyone the best , today.

WTG on no appetite! Sounds like you're doing well. KUTGW. Hope the scale day is a wonderful one for you!

Originally Posted by lola001

Hi All

Krissy - special hugs for you. and a prayer for that boil - hope it goes down without a fuss. About hubby I have no solution. Just know that when you do not speak you cannot fix anything. Give him a hug when he gets home this evening and if that does not get him speaking well then- I have no solution. Arguments are inevitable but once we stop speaking or touching then there is no hope. At least you still feel love towards him. Good luck hun.
Ebeads- yay for feeling smaller! your living arrangement sounds so 60s hippy style - meant in the most creative, artistic sense. Would love the opportunity to find my artistic personality.

I have started taking pics with hubby's camera of my kitty and the wilderness outside my front door. - It is about as artistic as I can get right now.

Pam - sounds like almost everybody not in menopause has TOM or Bernice visiting.
Cheryl- hiya - hope you are getting some rest.
Hope - I know about those social events. I had a guest who brought over a case of portuguese beer - he only stayed a night. I've just been drinking the stuff because it is there.
Happy days all!
Will post a pic of the family of guinea fowls that prance around my front yard.

That's so true about the absence of touching and talking. That's what started happening between me and hubby when things got really bad with his health, his teenage son who was living with us, and when everything was spiralling out of control. But sometimes the touching that would be getting done might be closer to strangulation than embracing.

Photography is very artistic! It can be as artistic as you want it to be! Look for close-up things that have interesting shapes or colors or just the right lighting behind them and get the focus as clear as you can get it. Use a tripod if you can to keep from shaking the camera. I hate tripods so that's a reason why my pics aren't so hot.

So funny about the beer! I hear ya only I'm the one buying it! No more for all of the month of JUNE! It's a pact I've made with myself.

Originally Posted by ebeads

Hehehe yeah lola ... hippieish indeed ( without the drugs and free love though ... and I do BATHE daily *smile*) but my priorities are studio-ishness trumps interior decorating. :-)

So you DO live in the Studio! Wow. I need more space than that but it must be really cool for you to be surrounded by your own creative projects. Do you sleep much or do you find yourself working late into the night?

Well, I think that's all for the personals. I wrote a big "catch everybody up" post on my journal. I'll copy and paste it here so you can read it and get caught up, too.

[CherylB]

I had x-rays taken yesterday of my entire spine and both hips due to pain. Asked the doc for an MRI today cause it was suggested by a lady on my journal but Dr is not into that. He's ordering me some muscle relaxants. So now what I wrote below will make more sense!

Originally Posted by CherylB

Have the results from the x-rays but I don't know if they will order the MRI. As I figured, it only shows mild Osteopenia in my sacral spine, bilateral hips show nothing (left hip is the one that hurts) and the lumbar spine shows nothing. "They're normal, Cheryl! Great news!" No. Not great news, honey. I wouldn't have gone to the Dr if I felt good.

So I'll call them and ask about the MRI but I hate those. In the meantime, I will wear a bra 24/7 (not super busty but it might help to harness those suckers.) I will be more conscious of my posture and take Motrin on a schedule. I will start to exercise and improve my health in that way. It's high-time I did regular exercise, anyway.

I will use not only the pain for incentive but the horse lessons. I won't get much out of the $$ I'm putting into the lessons if I'm not fit enough to practice what I'm being taught. Sometimes I think I should just put the lessons off for this season but I know that's not a great move. I need that weekly reminder that I have to face this issue and take control of my health.

It can't be managed by diet alone. I'm at the stage in my weight loss journey where it is imperative. I kept saying, "When I break the 200's" or "When I'm this or that." It's all just procrastination and putting things on the proverbial "back burner."

And I'm so tired of having the same old clothes to wear! I refuse to buy more clothes and I can't get under the 70's the way I keep screwing around with my diet. I was doing GREAT up until Mother's Day when I had two lite beers when we went out for dinner. Then that was it. I got the taste for beer again and that has been my weakness ever since. I've had a few other mishaps but as of last night, I went hog-wild, like I was on a load.

I have the rest of all that food and drink to take out May in style, then I'm going to really focus in June. I want to see how slim I can get by my nephew's wedding on the 30th. But more than that, I want to see how much pain I can get rid of!

It's lovely today! A/C's are off, windows are open, grass was mowed this morning as I slept, and there's a wonderful breeze blowing. Sunny, mid-70's, my kind of day.

I bought two goldfish a week ago (or less) and they love me! They get all excited when I walk by! Tropical fish don't do that. They are in a small, thick crystal bowl and when they start spending too much time at the surface (gulping air), I take them to the kitchen sink. I run the tap water until it feels like the same temp as the water they are in, then I let the water just run into the bowl and flush out the old stale water. They love it! I plug the sink so if one slips out it won't be disastrous. I need to do that about every other day. I then add a little bit of that stuff that makes tap water safe. (City water has all those things like chlorine and crap. I filter my drinking water in a Brita filter.)

Let's see. What else is new? Well, today is the only day I have NOTHING on my schedule and I'm taking full advantage of it. I'm staying in my PJ's (until I go out and do a bit of weeding which I told the landlady I'd do.)

I'm in a terrible sleeping pattern again and it's only going to get worse. I'm so used to taking more than one sleeping pill that I'm going to be running out of Restoril in about a week. I want to save two for the night before the wedding so I can at least get a good sleep the night before that special day but I don't know if I can exercise that kind of control.

I am up until around 3 am or so then sleep until 1 or 2 pm. (2pm today.) It's already 3:30 and I'm just finishing my first cup of coffee. What a waste of a beautiful day.

When I saw the Dr yesterday, I told him (though he was doing something else on the computer and I don't know if he even heard me) that I don't want him to renew my script for Restoril. I can't refill them without a renewal and I don't want him to refill them even if I do ask him to later on at a weak moment. Enough is enough! I've been taking sleeping pills for far too many years.

So, after today and finishing all the beer and food from yesterday, I'm going to go back to the diet I was eating before, which was basically eggs and cheese and cream in my coffee. Sauteed veggies in my scrambled eggs, etc. I have been eating more things like burgers, hot dogs, fish, etc and I find that it's more of a chore than a delight. I have a pork tenderloin that I defrosted. I know you aren't supposed to refreeze food but I'm going to do it. I'll freeze the rest of the fish I have, too.

In other news, I've been getting terrible bug bites at the farm. Monday and Tuesday were so terribly hot and the bugs were unmerciful. I'm still scratching the bites and it's Thursday! Monday I wore no protection, Tuesday I was covered with bug spray even on areas that were going to be clothed. Each bite has a little scab on it, like a bee sting. And anti-itching creams do nothing to help them. It is enough to make you want to wear clothes that cover every inch of your body, even though it's 90 degrees outside. Maybe if I eat more garlic. They actually add it to the horses' grain and it's to decrease the bugs. Don't think it helps them much at all.

I haven't weighed in the past two days but I was 177 at the Dr's office, fully clothed (no shoes.) So I'm up about 5 lbs through all my shenanigans. June is coming. May is behind me! And I managed to make that move into my duplex, against all odds.

Sorry I keep jumping from subject to subject. I'm scattered today and I have to stop and think what else to say. I know I haven't been around much at all and I want this to be all-encompassing.

I will be taking my riding lesson tomorrow, even with the tailbone injury from last week and even with the pains in my left hip and back. Oh freakin well! Life must be lived.

I'm thinking of picking up a few mornings at the farm for just the first few weeks that I've run out of sleeping pills. Just stay up all night and work my tail off at the farm, then come home and stay busy, then go to bed at 10 pm. Do that for a few days and I'm bound to reset.

I'm going to make a few other rules. No caffeine after 12 noon. No water or other fluids (except to take pills) after 9pm. That will be a hard one. All I know is when I've been drinking beer, that's why I've been getting up at 3 or 4 in the morning. To PEE! Water doesn't do that to me, so maybe just taking beer out of the equation will fix that problem.

Ramble-ramble! Okay. I just called the Dr's office and said I wanted an MRI. They are going to see if he'll order it and then I have to come in and sign something that will be faxed and then I can go to a place for an open MRI. I'm not super claustrophobic but open is fine by me.

Well, I guess that's enough for one post. I'll do another one if I forgot something. Hugs and love to all!!! Sorry I've been MIA. Will try and do better in JUNE!

[Labyrinth]

Hi all
loved reading y'alls stuff. glad some are doing well.

super big hugs to you w/ marriage troubles. i was just there. didn't know if i could stay married to my man. things were really bad. fortunately, G-d stepped in and we are doing much better now. i agree that if you love him - keep talking and keep praying. but when you are done, you are done - don't try to save it after that. good luck.

cheryl - hope your back issues resolve soon. Yoga? it sure helped me. (and i so need to practice what i preach!!! - my pain level is very high these days as well). glad your new place is working out. hope you can stay away from the beer and sleeping pills. tough stuff.

i too am having beer trouble. one or two every night. ugh. just not good choices. i've only had 2 clean eating days. not counting alcohol or berries. so i guess not really clean. blah. having a very hard time mentally wanting to be on plan. i just wanna eat what i wanna eat. and it's not smart. i'm up to 170 again. clothes not fitting. and hurting. so you would think i'd be super motivated to eat on plan. i know it makes me feel better. not sure why i'm not there - but i'm not. so i'm going to work on more exercise. swimming tomorrow and saturday for sure. then joining a walking club on wednesday morings. and my Big has football camp from 8-10 every morning and i'm thinking i'm gonna walk the track while he's at practice. and more swimming. we got season passes to schlitterbahn so that should really help. ( Link if you are interested: Welcome to Schlitterbahn New Braunfels | Schlitterbahn New Braunfels )

just got back from dinner w/ the fam. at our favorite tex-mex spot. Love love love their enchiladas. but didn't get them. had beef fajitas instead. w/ guacamole and queso. so very good!!! maybe i can get back on plan..... but also had margarita so.... LOL.

ok.
Love & Light to all you ladies.
~L~

[CherylB]

Schlitterbahn! I always wanted to go but my then significant other was too cheap to take me there. Then when I left him, I was just too poor to go. Season passes will be AWESOME!

So glad you and hubby are on the up and up! What was the turning point for the two of you? I know it's been really rocky. Is his daughter still out of the house? How's his son behaving now?

WTG on the increased activity. I need to start doing the same things. I am clearly the captain of my own ship and there is no pill or potion that is going to make me feel the way I want to feel. Just hard work and dedication. Self discipline!

I took my first muscle relaxer tonight and feel no different than before I took it. Clearly the answer is not in the hands of others. It is in my own.

Tex-Mex and margaritas. You are making me miss TX tonight! Stop that!

Love and light to you, too.

[pcaltman]

Hi all,

Laughing becasue we broke down and had some wine last night Oh well, back on track today. Felt like such a mom yesterday baking for the kids. One son asked for my homemade granola, so had to be made

Well school's almost out. One more week for the little ones. Oldest was done last week, but has days here and there that he goes in for exams and senior stuff. We finally got the word he pasted high school and now is on his way to college. He is so smart, but what an idiot he was in school. Way to much stress with him. My second son just got a call for his job. He is very excited. He will be handling the martial arts summer camps for kids. He will do very well.

So hope all is doing well. Way to many of use hurting right now it sounds like so sending love and hugs out to everybody

[CherylB]

June Atkins '72 Thread (2012)

Here's the new thread for June! Pam, glad you enjoyed your wine. Great news about your sons! Maybe copy and paste this last post onto the new thread so it doesn't get lost.