I'm not doing well

Wifey · 08-21-2009, 11:55 AM

I'm sitting here in tears right now. I did so well going without alcohol and I went to vegas in april and thought that a couple won't hurt me. But those couple " just on vacation " has turned to bing drinking at night. I have a ulcer and hypoglycemia and I'm in agony today. I feel like I'm dying. WTH did I start drinking again? I feel disgusting.

Redeemed · 08-21-2009, 03:48 PM

Amber,

I pray you find your pathway back to sobriety. You are not disgusting. You are "fearfully and wonderfully made". I know there are experts here who can steer you toward the right direction concerning this. My knowledge in this area is limited. But, please be assured I am praying for you. Many, many hugs!

Redeemed

Wifey · 08-21-2009, 04:03 PM

Thank you so much. What you said really touched me. I really appreciate it.

Leo41 · 08-21-2009, 04:24 PM

Amber,

Like Redeemed, I'm not an expert either, but I DO know that the only failure is to give up. By posting, you show that you don't want to give up. In every endeavor, there's backsliding, but the key is to get right back up and keep on going.

Now you know that any alcohol can be a trigger. You've learned something valuable to keep in mind for the future. So this wasn't a total disaster.

Be glad that alcohol is not like food--at least you can practice total abstinence.

You can do this, and you will be happier and healthier as a result. Be kind to yourself

SweetPoison2 · 08-21-2009, 06:16 PM

Amber I am so sorry you are going through this!!

I will keep you in my prayers!

Wifey · 08-21-2009, 06:32 PM

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Originally Posted by Leo41

Amber,

Like Redeemed, I'm not an expert either, but I DO know that the only failure is to give up. By posting, you show that you don't want to give up. In every endeavor, there's backsliding, but the key is to get right back up and keep on going.

Now you know that any alcohol can be a trigger. You've learned something valuable to keep in mind for the future. So this wasn't a total disaster.

Be glad that alcohol is not like food--at least you can practice total abstinence.

You can do this, and you will be happier and healthier as a result. Be kind to yourself

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Originally Posted by SweetPoison2

Amber I am so sorry you are going through this!!

I will keep you in my prayers!

Thank you so much you guys! I'm feeling so much better and I know that I can do this.

itzme91 · 08-22-2009, 05:47 PM

Amber,you will get back on the wagon!! Just look at those pretty babies you have and know they need you.You can do it girl! One day at a time one step at a time.Big hugs

Wifey · 08-22-2009, 05:49 PM

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Originally Posted by itzme91

Amber,you will get back on the wagon!! Just look at those pretty babies you have and know they need you.You can do it girl! One day at a time one step at a time.Big hugs

Thank you so much for that. I am feeling much stronger today and I'm going to look into going to a meeting. Thanks for the support.

itzme91 · 08-22-2009, 05:52 PM

we'll all be cheering you on and keeping you in our thoughts and prayers!

Wifey · 08-22-2009, 05:55 PM

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Originally Posted by itzme91

we'll all be cheering you on and keeping you in our thoughts and prayers!

Thank you.

Su11 · 08-22-2009, 06:20 PM

Have you checked to see if there are call centers? You probably need someone to talk to right now.

We're keeping you in our prayers.

Also, once you feel better, try looking into the nutritional/ supplement side of recovery. There are some very promising things out there that might make it less of a struggle for you.

All of us have our 'something' that breaks us down and makes us feel worthless. You know yours for what it is and that is putting you so much farther ahead than many. Keep going, you will make it! Hugs.

Wifey · 08-22-2009, 06:26 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Su11

Have you checked to see if there are call centers? You probably need someone to talk to right now.

We're keeping you in our prayers.

Also, once you feel better, try looking into the nutritional/ supplement side of recovery. There are some very promising things out there that might make it less of a struggle for you.

All of us have our 'something' that breaks us down and makes us feel worthless. You know yours for what it is and that is putting you so much farther ahead than many. Keep going, you will make it! Hugs.

Thank you so much for the support and information. I will look into it.

SweetPoison2 · 08-22-2009, 07:44 PM

Am I missing something? Is there something really really wrong?

Wifey · 08-22-2009, 09:07 PM

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Originally Posted by SweetPoison2

Am I missing something? Is there something really really wrong?

I have a problem with drinking 6 double vodkas every night from 5 till passing out. Not good. It has really messed my body up to where I was throwing up blood and tmi was bleeding when I went to the bathroom. I think I do need some help getting sober for good.

SweetPoison2 · 08-23-2009, 03:37 AM

Omg goodness, woman! I had no clue. I am so sorry you are going through this!

Don't you have two little girls? Were you always doing this Amber, or did it just start again?

Violet Skye · 08-23-2009, 05:43 AM

Amber, big hugs to you

. Gte the help you need, NOW! In the meantime, there are tons of resources on line, and you may even be able to find an online AA meeting to go to. You can do this!

Su11 · 08-23-2009, 05:49 AM

Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers today. You can get through this.

Redeemed · 08-23-2009, 07:48 AM

Praying for you and your family today, Amber.

Wifey · 08-23-2009, 12:48 PM

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Originally Posted by SweetPoison2

Omg goodness, woman! I had no clue. I am so sorry you are going through this!

Don't you have two little girls? Were you always doing this Amber, or did it just start again?

Yep two girls. They had no clue what so ever I was ever drunk. I'm one of those that no one would be able to tell. Just drank quitely on the sidelines. Thanks you guys for the support I feel like a new person today. I haven't even had a yearning for a drink since the other day that I wrote this! I will get help though still because I think I need it to stay sober.

Su11 · 08-23-2009, 12:55 PM

It is interesting to me that eating (even overeating, not classic eating disorders) and other addictions are so closely linked.

No one should ever feel ashamed that they have a problem, only ashamed if they don't keep fighting.

SweetPoison2 · 08-23-2009, 01:31 PM

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Originally Posted by AmberNikki80

I haven't even had a yearning for a drink since the other day that I wrote this! I will get help though still because I think I need it to stay sober.

We are here for you, Amber!!

Wifey · 08-23-2009, 01:32 PM

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Originally Posted by SweetPoison2

We are here for you, Amber!!

Thank you so much for your support.

Bluqq · 08-23-2009, 01:41 PM

I lit a candle for you today in church
We are all with you

Wifey · 08-23-2009, 01:47 PM

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Originally Posted by Bluqq

I lit a candle for you today in church
We are all with you

You brought tears to my eyes. You have no idea how much that means to me.

BonBon19 · 08-24-2009, 01:21 PM

You gave it up before, I know you can do this again! Help is always a good idea though, just to have someone to talk to and be accountable to. Best wishes to you!

Wifey · 08-24-2009, 01:23 PM

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Originally Posted by BonBon19

You gave it up before, I know you can do this again! Help is always a good idea though, just to have someone to talk to and be accountable to. Best wishes to you!

Thank you soo much. I can't even tell you how much better I feel when I don't drink.

itzme91 · 08-24-2009, 09:35 PM

Lots of prayers and hugs for you!!

Ilpirata · 08-31-2009, 04:10 PM

AA saved my life it can work for you too. Have you been to that meeting yet?

Wifey · 09-13-2009, 01:20 AM

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Originally Posted by Ilpirata

AA saved my life it can work for you too. Have you been to that meeting yet?

Sorry it took me so long to anwser you! I have been doing private counseling and I feel wonderful! Thank you all for the prayers and good thought and advice. It means so much to me.

Ilpirata · 09-14-2009, 10:10 AM

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Originally Posted by AmberNikki80

Sorry it took me so long to anwser you! I have been doing private counseling and I feel wonderful! Thank you all for the prayers and good thought and advice. It means so much to me.

Good Girl! I just want you to be well and happy

08-21-2009, 11:55 AM	#1
Wifey Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Dec 2007 Location: Oregon Posts: 8,388 Gallery: Wifey WOE: Medifast 800-1000 calories a day	I'm not doing well I'm sitting here in tears right now. I did so well going without alcohol and I went to vegas in april and thought that a couple won't hurt me. But those couple " just on vacation " has turned to bing drinking at night. I have a ulcer and hypoglycemia and I'm in agony today. I feel like I'm dying. WTH did I start drinking again? I feel disgusting.

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08-21-2009, 03:48 PM	#2
Redeemed MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: Beautiful Minnesota, Land of 10,000 Lakes Posts: 1,395 Gallery: Redeemed WOE: JUDDD Start Date: 11/7/09	Amber, I pray you find your pathway back to sobriety. You are not disgusting. You are "fearfully and wonderfully made". I know there are experts here who can steer you toward the right direction concerning this. My knowledge in this area is limited. But, please be assured I am praying for you. Many, many hugs! Redeemed

08-21-2009, 04:03 PM	#3
Wifey Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Dec 2007 Location: Oregon Posts: 8,388 Gallery: Wifey WOE: Medifast 800-1000 calories a day	Thank you so much. What you said really touched me. I really appreciate it.

08-21-2009, 04:24 PM	#4
Leo41 MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Nov 2007 Posts: 2,446 Gallery: Leo41	Amber, Like Redeemed, I'm not an expert either, but I DO know that the only failure is to give up. By posting, you show that you don't want to give up. In every endeavor, there's backsliding, but the key is to get right back up and keep on going. Now you know that any alcohol can be a trigger. You've learned something valuable to keep in mind for the future. So this wasn't a total disaster. Be glad that alcohol is not like food--at least you can practice total abstinence. You can do this, and you will be happier and healthier as a result. Be kind to yourself

08-21-2009, 06:16 PM	#5
SweetPoison2 Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Aug 2008 Location: Sacramento, California Posts: 7,879 Gallery: SweetPoison2 Stats: 246/228/150 WOE: Anything I Want Plan Start Date: June 09	Amber I am so sorry you are going through this!! I will keep you in my prayers!

08-22-2009, 05:47 PM	#7
itzme91 MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: SE Kentucky Posts: 1,326 Gallery: itzme91 Stats: 198/138/125 WOE: just watching my carbs	Amber,you will get back on the wagon!! Just look at those pretty babies you have and know they need you.You can do it girl! One day at a time one step at a time.Big hugs

08-22-2009, 05:52 PM	#9
itzme91 MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: SE Kentucky Posts: 1,326 Gallery: itzme91 Stats: 198/138/125 WOE: just watching my carbs	we'll all be cheering you on and keeping you in our thoughts and prayers!

08-22-2009, 06:20 PM	#11
Su11 Way too much time on my hands! Join Date: Mar 2001 Location: Outside Perimeter Atlanta Georgia Posts: 12,910 Gallery: Su11 Stats: Total loss- 54 (since Sept 05) WOE: General lower carb	Have you checked to see if there are call centers? You probably need someone to talk to right now. We're keeping you in our prayers. Also, once you feel better, try looking into the nutritional/ supplement side of recovery. There are some very promising things out there that might make it less of a struggle for you. All of us have our 'something' that breaks us down and makes us feel worthless. You know yours for what it is and that is putting you so much farther ahead than many. Keep going, you will make it! Hugs.

08-22-2009, 07:44 PM	#13
SweetPoison2 Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Aug 2008 Location: Sacramento, California Posts: 7,879 Gallery: SweetPoison2 Stats: 246/228/150 WOE: Anything I Want Plan Start Date: June 09	Am I missing something? Is there something really really wrong?

08-23-2009, 03:37 AM	#15
SweetPoison2 Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Aug 2008 Location: Sacramento, California Posts: 7,879 Gallery: SweetPoison2 Stats: 246/228/150 WOE: Anything I Want Plan Start Date: June 09	Omg goodness, woman! I had no clue. I am so sorry you are going through this! Don't you have two little girls? Were you always doing this Amber, or did it just start again?

08-23-2009, 05:43 AM	#16
Violet Skye Very Gabby LCF Member!!! Join Date: May 2007 Location: Montreal Posts: 4,582 Gallery: Violet Skye Stats: 219.4/175.0 - 44.4 pounds gone!/134 WOE: Controlled Carb Weight Watchers Start Date: December 23, 2008	Amber, big hugs to you . Gte the help you need, NOW! In the meantime, there are tons of resources on line, and you may even be able to find an online AA meeting to go to. You can do this!

08-23-2009, 05:49 AM	#17
Su11 Way too much time on my hands! Join Date: Mar 2001 Location: Outside Perimeter Atlanta Georgia Posts: 12,910 Gallery: Su11 Stats: Total loss- 54 (since Sept 05) WOE: General lower carb	Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers today. You can get through this.

08-23-2009, 07:48 AM	#18
Redeemed MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: Beautiful Minnesota, Land of 10,000 Lakes Posts: 1,395 Gallery: Redeemed WOE: JUDDD Start Date: 11/7/09	Praying for you and your family today, Amber.

08-23-2009, 12:55 PM	#20
Su11 Way too much time on my hands! Join Date: Mar 2001 Location: Outside Perimeter Atlanta Georgia Posts: 12,910 Gallery: Su11 Stats: Total loss- 54 (since Sept 05) WOE: General lower carb	It is interesting to me that eating (even overeating, not classic eating disorders) and other addictions are so closely linked. No one should ever feel ashamed that they have a problem, only ashamed if they don't keep fighting.

08-23-2009, 01:41 PM	#23
Bluqq Way too much time on my hands! Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: New Yawk Posts: 16,261 Gallery: Bluqq Stats: 144/99/100 Start Date: 11/24/05	I lit a candle for you today in church We are all with you

08-24-2009, 01:21 PM	#25
BonBon19 MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: At a location near you Posts: 2,875 Gallery: BonBon19 WOE: Atkins Start Date: Summer 2008	You gave it up before, I know you can do this again! Help is always a good idea though, just to have someone to talk to and be accountable to. Best wishes to you!

08-24-2009, 09:35 PM	#27
itzme91 MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: SE Kentucky Posts: 1,326 Gallery: itzme91 Stats: 198/138/125 WOE: just watching my carbs	Lots of prayers and hugs for you!!

08-31-2009, 04:10 PM	#28
Ilpirata Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Nov 2007 Location: Beautiful San Jose, CA Posts: 7,626 Gallery: Ilpirata Stats: 263/193/170 for now... WOE: Low Carb JUDD (Alternate Day Diet) Start Date: September 2007	AA saved my life it can work for you too. Have you been to that meeting yet?