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Way too much time on my hands!
Join Date: May 2003
Location: Louisville, KY
Posts: 18,014
Gallery: JuliaL
Stats: 190/143/140 16/6/6, height 5'8", age 49
WOE: Atkins/BFFM
Start Date: 4/22/03
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I lost a 5-year quit!
You don't know how hard it is for me to post this, but I need to do it. Accountability is very important. I quit smoking almost 5 years ago on January 1, 2004. I was at the point where I really never thought about cigarettes. I didn't want to smoke and was so happy to be free of the addiction.
I was so confident in my quit that I decided I could smoke a couple of cigarettes while having a couple of drinks with my sister-in-law one evening. And the next day I didn't want to smoke more, so that just reinforced my thinking that I could handle just smoking a couple in a social situation. So the next time I was with her, I did it again. Then again, but this time I bought my own pack because I didn't want to be a cigarette bum. I threw the pack away the next day, but the weekend after that I bought another pack. This time I didn't throw them away. Now I had convinced myself I could handle smoking on the weekends. But the weekends turned into Thursday through Tuesday. And before I knew it I was smoking again every day. Now here I am on day one of a new quit. I hope that I never have to go through this again, and I just wanted to share with those of you who may have quit and are thinking that just one won't hurt. It will.
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Way too much time on my hands!
Join Date: May 2003
Location: Louisville, KY
Posts: 18,014
Gallery: JuliaL
Stats: 190/143/140 16/6/6, height 5'8", age 49
WOE: Atkins/BFFM
Start Date: 4/22/03
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Thanks for the support! Today has been kind of rough, though not nearly as bad as the first time I quit. I'm hanging in there - now I just have to get past that dangerous period when I go to the gym for my workout and pass the store that sells my favorite brand. Yes, I was smoking on my way to the gym!
![]() ![]() The hardest part of quitting is getting through all the activities you used to do while smoking. When I quit last time I actually had to drive a different route to work for a while so I wouldn't associate it with smoking as much. Maybe I'll do the same with my drive to the Y. |
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Old Wise One
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Reminds me of an old Quitnet expression
"It's easier to keep the Quit I have than to start a new one". Sorry you have to go through Hell Week again. One of my former employees slipped back after seven years. It's not easy. On a positive note ... you know you can do it. And so do I. ... 10 years, 16 days, and almost 14 hours ... . |
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Way too much time on my hands!
Join Date: May 2003
Location: Louisville, KY
Posts: 18,014
Gallery: JuliaL
Stats: 190/143/140 16/6/6, height 5'8", age 49
WOE: Atkins/BFFM
Start Date: 4/22/03
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Thanks, Jezzie - and to everyone else who responded. Jezzie - I've been posting and reading on Quitnet, and it does help a lot. I made it through yesterday and I'm feeling a little stronger today. I won't smoke - no matter what!
One of the most helpful things I read on Quitnet was "You will have cravings whether you smoke or you don't smoke. If you smoke you'll have them every 30 minutes. If you don't smoke the cravings will get fewer and farther between." I need to remember that one. A craving is just a feeling. It won't kill you, but smoking will. |
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Big Yapper!!!!
Join Date: Nov 2007
Location: Beautiful San Jose, CA
Posts: 7,626
Gallery: Ilpirata
Stats: 263/193/170 for now...
WOE: Low Carb JUDD (Alternate Day Diet)
Start Date: September 2007
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Brave of you, to publish your admission that you dabbled with moderation and are once again sure that moderate smoking is not possible. Some of us cannot "do" a moderate amount of a substance that takes over. As they say in AA, first the man takes a drink, then the drink takes the man. So it is with me and carbs.
I wish you strength as you confront your own demon and curb the urge to smoke! |
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Senior LCF Member
Join Date: Sep 2008
Location: mississippi,by way of Alberta
Posts: 297
Gallery: slush
Stats: 152/147/127 5'4" (1964)
WOE: low carbs and running
Start Date: august 2008
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Hi Julia... you are human and had a minor setback. You caught yourself and now you've quit. PLEASE keep staying strong. You are just not a smoker- fight that temptation and in a week or so you'll be over it and free. Any addiction that you don't feed will starve and die. Mentally you may still be tempted for a while, but the physical addictiion will be conquered. We don't always do as we should sometimes... but then we figure it out and do what we need to do. You are too smart, and you value your health to much to give in to that demon of nicotine.
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Join Date: Jun 2007
Location: MD
Posts: 1,998
Gallery: Jean@125
Stats: 166/150.8/ ? 5'2
WOE: hanging on for dear life
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Julia,
I hope it is getting easier for you. I quit 20+ years ago and would occasionally slip up especially when under severe stress. And like you I found that working out and smoking didn't go so well together. Take care. Jeanie |
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MAJOR LCF POSTER!
Join Date: Oct 2008
Location: Wandering around the Delta Quadrant
Posts: 2,331
Gallery: KlingonBabe
Stats: Miserable/Sane/FABULOUS
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Julia, I'm very impressed that you posted this.
Your experience with cigarettes was my experience with frankenbreads, starch, sugar, and "moderation." One small concession led to a small indulgence, and more and more frequent transgressions. I'm still undoing the damage. Complete abstinence is the only way for me to handle it. I know you will come to that place again with the cigarettes. You are an inspiration to many of us around here! It's an honor to be able to offer YOU support and encouragement when you need it! |
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MAJOR LCF POSTER!
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Julia- I hope things get easier for you!! You have had great willpower with your weightloss and you have inspired me in mine
Good luck and I know you can do it! |
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Very Gabby LCF Member!!!
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Julia kudos to you for coming clean.. I was in your shoes a year ago. After almost 3 years smoke free, hubby was laid off from his job only 4 days after Christmas. I took up smoking again and within a week I was smoking more furiously than ever before.
I was so ashamed I never told anyone (except my close friends and hubby who also smoked.. funny how happy they were I joined the ranks again..) I finally got the gumption to quit last August *again*. If anything, it has made me more determined to stay quit than ever before... I will admit it was harder than ever, but mostly because my life was so different with a new baby, new job for hubby... smoking in this new life was all I knew and I had to learn to live it differently. Please keep us posted on how you are doing... and also know that you are not alone in being human. ![]() |
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Way too much time on my hands!
Join Date: May 2003
Location: Louisville, KY
Posts: 18,014
Gallery: JuliaL
Stats: 190/143/140 16/6/6, height 5'8", age 49
WOE: Atkins/BFFM
Start Date: 4/22/03
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Thanks everyone for your wonderful feedback and support. I have to admit that I still haven't quit totally, but I've cut way back and have set a quit date - this Wednesday. I'm using my son coming home as my motivation. I haven't seen him since May and I know how disappointed he would be if he saw me smoking again.
Klingonbabe - you're so right about total abstinence. I know it's the only way, and I also know I can do it. I am just kicking myself for re-addicting. Margot - thanks so much for sharing! It helps to know I'm not the only one who has made this stupid mistake. I think it will also make me even more determined to stay quit. I know that just one will be the undoing of a lot of hard work. |
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Very Gabby LCF Member!!!
Join Date: Jan 2003
Location: Oregun
Posts: 3,964
Gallery: ChetRogers
Stats: FAT/FAT/thin
WOE: None ..Just eating better
Start Date: 06/18/07
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Hope you kick the habit again. I quit over a year ago and haven't wanted one yet. I wish I could say the same thing about my alcohol consumption. Just saw this post and thought I would ask how is it going now?
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MAJOR LCF POSTER!
Join Date: Jul 2008
Location: Long Island, NY
Posts: 1,079
Gallery: SugarPop
Stats: (225) 212/166/125 (5'2")
WOE: Atkins/ LowCarb - Restart 6/1/09
Start Date: Quit Smoking 1/1/09
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Today is Day One for me too......I'm wearing the patch, but I don't think it's making a difference - maybe.
It's a hard thing and you should be very proud that you know your limitations and are quitting again. I did the same thing as you 3x.........Once I quit for 4 years and then I had every stress imaginable in my life happening at the time and impulsively I grabbed a cigarette from my husband's (now ex) pack on the counter.......It took me years to try again and then when I did I got to almost a year and had had a few drinks at a social event, like you did, and thought I could handle it but I only wanted more.............I quit again and started dating a guy who smoked cigars and we would drink wine together - before too long I would ask for a drag of his cigar while we drank our wine.......soon I was smoking my own cigars!!!!...then just switched to cigarettes. The thing is that years can go by before you quit again - like it did with me. So bravo to you for nipping it in the bud before years go by. I have constant pain in my chest, I cough when I wake up and on a recent date the guy kissed me and asked if I had smoked a cigarette earlier (I had a few hrs before).........All this and more are my reasons for quitting again. For a long time I thought it would help me not to eat.....but in reality I was a fat smoker. So here I am - I'm with you and we can do this. B
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Senior LCF Member
Join Date: Apr 2002
Location: IL
Posts: 621
Gallery: Doggygirl
Stats: 204/147 (yeah!)/145-150 size 18/8/10
WOE: Moderate Carbs & Organic /Big Girl Gym
Start Date: 5/22/08
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Hi Julia. I just now saw your original post on this thread and just wanted to say that I understand. And I admire you for getting on top of this situation quickly. The first time I quit smoking which was about 17 years ago give or take, I fell for that "now I can have just one" nonsense. It took me 15 years to suck up the courage to get back on the nicotine free wagon. So you are ahead of the game! It's not easy but you can do it.
That "just one" voice in the head can be a killer, no matter which addiction we want to talk about.... ETA: Oops Sugarpop I somehow missed your post! Good for you on Day 1 again. We're kindred spirits on how long it took us to get back on the wagon! Best wishes to you! DG
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Way too much time on my hands!
Join Date: May 2003
Location: Louisville, KY
Posts: 18,014
Gallery: JuliaL
Stats: 190/143/140 16/6/6, height 5'8", age 49
WOE: Atkins/BFFM
Start Date: 4/22/03
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Thank you everyone so much for your support. The holidays have been hard, and I admit I haven't been totally cigarette free. I have a new quit date planned. It's very difficult for me to openly admit that I haven't been strong enough to totally give them up yet, but I know how important accountability is in this process.
I just wish so much that I had never had that first puff. I think about how well I was doing and how I never thought about smoking. Now, even though I'm not back to where I was, cigarettes are part of my life again and I really never wanted that to happen. I will do this! It's just going to take me a bit longer than I thought, but I will conquer this addiction once and for all. Everyone who has recently quit - don't give up! It does get easier, and as long as you don't smoke, no matter what (you can't have "just one puff" ) you will succeed! |
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Senior LCF Member
Join Date: Jun 2004
Location: Kentucky
Posts: 694
Gallery: TurnNBurn
Stats: 175.5/170.5/149
Start Date: 10/25/03 // restart 11/2008
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I can sympathise, as I quit for a year in 2000 but turned around and picked it up again in 2002. I have been 3 days quit this time; please come on over and join us in the new 09 thread: Stop smoking 2009 We can do this together! ![]() |
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Junior LCF Member
Join Date: Mar 2008
Posts: 26
Gallery: beachbumwannabe
Stats: 177/170/135
WOE: Low carb
Start Date: 11/20/08
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Julia, I did the exact same thing. Quit when I got pregnant 5 years ago and started back up in Jan of '08. It started out as grabbing a smoke from DH while drinking one night. Realized how much I missed it, thought I could just do it on Friday nights. Then it turned into just on the weekends. Then it turned into just one a day, then I was back up to 1/2 pack or more a day.
It was easier to quit this time around because I was so ANGRY with myself for starting again. I quit in Sept. of '08. I just picked a quit date, stuck to it and never looked back. I did read Allen Carr's Easyway to quit smoking and it helped somewhat. The lesson I learned is that nicotine is an addiction and I have no control over it. I WILL become addicted again after even just one puff. Thinking I could just become a social smoker was naive - nicotine is a highly addictive drug and I must avoid it at all costs - I can't control it, it controls me. |
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Senior LCF Member
Join Date: Jan 2009
Location: Las Vegas, Nevada
Posts: 149
Gallery: Brennum
Stats: 240/240/150
WOE: Atkins
Start Date: January 2009
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I did the same thing, I quit for 3 years started back up and smoked for another 10 years before I attemted the quit. I went cold turkey and told no one except the husband. I have been smoke free since Nov 2008.
I was determined that this was the right time for me and it was so much easier than in the past when I tried to quit. My husband was a great support for me which made the quit easier. I don't tempt myself with anything that might trigger a set back so I don't drink until I know I can handle it and I also quit drinking coffee because I would want to light up. I drink tea now instead. Good Luck to each and everyone of you, I know you can do it. |
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