new and old habits die hard

wittykitten · 10-23-2007, 09:15 PM

im new and finding it hard to stay on track...at only 2 and half weeks into atkins...i kinda feel pathetic typing that....all day long I find it pretty easy to stick to ...but at night...i feel my old binge tendencies returning. Since i was about 13 i have struggled with bulimia and coe.....during this short time i have been trying to follow this way of eating i have binged and purged twice...not proud of that...but maybe someone out there can relate...

momof2cnc · 10-24-2007, 10:56 AM

Hi wittykitten. I just had to post to let you know that you are not alone. I have also struggled with ED's anorexia, bulimia & coe. At the beginning of my current weight loss journey I was coming off a 3 yr coe cycle. The only way I knew to lose weight was through another ED..of course. So, I turned to my old friend anorexia and began restricting to 200 cals a day. I lost 44 lbs in about a month/6 weeks. I then caved and began eating again, which turned into a cycle of bulimia. Well, I was so out of control I ended up in the ER with a multitude of issues including severe edema..I looked like a parade float. This is when I decided to try something new. I found LC'ing and have been b/p free for 26 days. I'm don't think that it's all LC that has kept me in line but it has helped me. I also joined support sites and post often. I think finding your triggers is key.
I am still new to this so I may not be able to offer to much advice but, I can offer my support.
Feel free to contact me anytime.
Take Care.

wittykitten · 10-24-2007, 03:30 PM

thanks for your message. Im sorry to hear that you have also struggled with eds..but glad that you are recovering. Congrats on your weight loss so far...im 5 feet tall and would love to be 145 right now:-)but i will be there one day.

cardenas5usa · 10-26-2007, 03:22 PM

I am glad both of you are here! It is a great place to be. All I can say is that I understand....I am not ready to fess up to all that I have done, but since I started here I have tried very hard to find a new way to relate to food, and it has worked so far. Keep your spirits up and know that we are all here to help each other succeed.

wittykitten · 10-26-2007, 06:04 PM

thanks for your message and congrats on ur weightloss so far!

momof2cnc · 10-27-2007, 04:10 AM

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Originally Posted by cardenas5usa

I am glad both of you are here! It is a great place to be. All I can say is that I understand....I am not ready to fess up to all that I have done, but since I started here I have tried very hard to find a new way to relate to food, and it has worked so far. Keep your spirits up and know that we are all here to help each other succeed.

Hello and congrats! I wasnt really ready to put all that down in an open forum either..lol. Actually, I tried to come back and edit it out but it was tooo late

. Oh well. Time to accept my past and move on. Good luck!

momof2cnc · 10-27-2007, 04:11 AM

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Originally Posted by wittykitten

thanks for your message. Im sorry to hear that you have also struggled with eds..but glad that you are recovering. Congrats on your weight loss so far...im 5 feet tall and would love to be 145 right now:-)but i will be there one day.

wittykitten, its nice to meet a fellow shorty! You'll get there hun.
Good luck to you

!

cardenas5usa · 10-27-2007, 11:15 AM

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Originally Posted by momof2cnc

Hello and congrats! I wasnt really ready to put all that down in an open forum either..lol. Actually, I tried to come back and edit it out but it was tooo late

. Oh well. Time to accept my past and move on. Good luck!

To be honest, I have never told anyone about what I have done, only in breif to my dh, but it was just a comment and it passes no big. So to see in words....I don't know, I would freak.

Big hugs to you for being able to do it...even if you wanted to go back and change it

Good luck to you both!

wittykitten · 10-28-2007, 09:14 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by cardenas5usa

To be honest, I have never told anyone about what I have done, only in breif to my dh, but it was just a comment and it passes no big. So to see in words....I don't know, I would freak.

Big hugs to you for being able to do it...even if you wanted to go back and change it

Good luck to you both!

I am sure alot of people on this site have eating disorders. I dont think you can become "morbidly obese" without some kind of food issue. Thats just my opinion of course. I just wanted to stop lying. Lying to myself about the things i have done 2 lose weight and the things i have done to get this way. I really just want to put it behind me. No more bingeing, no more purging, no more overeating. But who can tell the future. I just want to do it right this time and be honest. Not for anyone else but myself and I dont care who knows it.

momof2cnc · 10-29-2007, 05:45 AM

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Originally Posted by wittykitten

I am sure alot of people on this site have eating disorders. I dont think you can become "morbidly obese" without some kind of food issue. Thats just my opinion of course. I just wanted to stop lying. Lying to myself about the things i have done 2 lose weight and the things i have done to get this way. I really just want to put it behind me. No more bingeing, no more purging, no more overeating. But who can tell the future. I just want to do it right this time and be honest. Not for anyone else but myself and I dont care who knows it.

wittykitten- You are amazingly brave!

I hope I can be so upfront about my ED's sometime in the future. Just one day at a time right now, right?

momof2cnc · 10-29-2007, 05:47 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by cardenas5usa

To be honest, I have never told anyone about what I have done, only in breif to my dh, but it was just a comment and it passes no big. So to see in words....I don't know, I would freak.

Big hugs to you for being able to do it...even if you wanted to go back and change it

Good luck to you both!

Good luck to you too hun.

cardenas5usa · 11-01-2007, 08:18 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by momof2cnc

Good luck to you too hun.

Thanx, it was a long road to finally get to the point of deciding to actually do something about my weight the "right" way....a healthy diet, and exercise. I am glad to finally know that it can work.

Determinedtolose · 11-01-2007, 08:30 AM

I just have to say this. . .
I think All you Ladies are brave! Just for you to want to change your woe around for the better is such a big step and it can only get better for you all.

I pray all the best to you and that you all will succeed in this new woe and wol!

Diana

wittykitten · 11-01-2007, 09:21 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by momof2cnc

wittykitten- You are amazingly brave!

I hope I can be so upfront about my ED's sometime in the future. Just one day at a time right now, right?

definitely..one day at a time! Everyday is a struggle but I am determinied!..hey thanks again for staying in touch.

wittykitten · 11-01-2007, 09:24 AM

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Originally Posted by Determinedtolose

I just have to say this. . .
I think All you Ladies are brave! Just for you to want to change your woe around for the better is such a big step and it can only get better for you all.

I pray all the best to you and that you all will succeed in this new woe and wol!

Diana

thanks for your message. Every note gives me a little more encouragement.

Hayley · 11-02-2007, 11:43 AM

This is a good thread. Thanks to ya'll who have shared a some of their stories.

I've struggled with my ED since I was 13 or so. I have EDNOS. I struggled with COE for a couple of years and that's how I went from a size 6 to a size 30 in 2 years!

At 290 lbs, I knew I had to do something. In Feb 2004, I started Atkins and that really curbed my out of control eating. I lost 145 lbs in 18 months which was way cool. I got off of LC and gained back up to 170 in 2006. I was scared that I was going to end up back at square 1. I started LCing and lost about 10 lbs. I was fine there until I started working at a bar. Then I kind of felt pressured to look a certain way to bring in tips. I started really restricting and using laxatives at that time. I went from a size 14 to size 6 in 2 months. Then I met my bf and of course I've gained some weight back. We ate out a lot and drank a lot in the beginning of our relationship. So...... finally I'm back to trying to lose weight by following LC. The weight is not coming off as fast as I would like but at least it is healthier.

It is a vicious cycle. I think about food 24/7. I haven't had an official weigh in for several months. I'm a little scared of what the scale will say and that it will put me into a tailspin. So for now I'm staying off the blasted thing.

Anyway, good luck everyone! This is a hard row to hoe but we can do it!

wittykitten · 11-03-2007, 08:28 AM

Hayley,
sorry to hear about your struggles with eating disorders but its good to see you are heading in the right direction now. Congrats on your weightloss so far!

10-23-2007, 09:15 PM	#1
wittykitten Senior LCF Member Join Date: Oct 2007 Location: NC Posts: 80 Gallery: wittykitten Stats: 229/213.4/125 WOE: Atkins Start Date: October 5th 2007	new and old habits die hard im new and finding it hard to stay on track...at only 2 and half weeks into atkins...i kinda feel pathetic typing that....all day long I find it pretty easy to stick to ...but at night...i feel my old binge tendencies returning. Since i was about 13 i have struggled with bulimia and coe.....during this short time i have been trying to follow this way of eating i have binged and purged twice...not proud of that...but maybe someone out there can relate...

10-24-2007, 10:56 AM	#2
momof2cnc Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jan 2004 Location: Fayetteville, NC US Posts: 165 Gallery: momof2cnc Stats: 193.5/14?/100(5'2") WOE: Atkins Induction,FF/M&E/Stillmans-whatever works Start Date: VERY LOW CAL 8/10/07 ATKINS-9/29/07	Hi wittykitten. I just had to post to let you know that you are not alone. I have also struggled with ED's anorexia, bulimia & coe. At the beginning of my current weight loss journey I was coming off a 3 yr coe cycle. The only way I knew to lose weight was through another ED..of course. So, I turned to my old friend anorexia and began restricting to 200 cals a day. I lost 44 lbs in about a month/6 weeks. I then caved and began eating again, which turned into a cycle of bulimia. Well, I was so out of control I ended up in the ER with a multitude of issues including severe edema..I looked like a parade float. This is when I decided to try something new. I found LC'ing and have been b/p free for 26 days. I'm don't think that it's all LC that has kept me in line but it has helped me. I also joined support sites and post often. I think finding your triggers is key. I am still new to this so I may not be able to offer to much advice but, I can offer my support. Feel free to contact me anytime. Take Care. __________________ starvation got me from 193.5-149 started atkins at 159 9/29/07 ?lbs to my next goal! gw1-136gw2-118ugw-100 118 by Easter!!!

11-01-2007, 08:30 AM	#13
Determinedtolose Big Yapper!!!! Join Date: Jul 2007 Posts: 8,484 Gallery: Determinedtolose Stats: To be at a healthy weight! WOE: Atkins/And Eating Fat Start Date: I started on 4/2007. Goal by 9/2008	Remarkable!! I just have to say this. . . I think All you Ladies are brave! Just for you to want to change your woe around for the better is such a big step and it can only get better for you all. I pray all the best to you and that you all will succeed in this new woe and wol! Diana

11-02-2007, 11:43 AM	#16
Hayley Senior LCF Member Join Date: Sep 2004 Location: Kansas Posts: 125 Gallery: Hayley Stats: Size 30/10/6 WOE: Stillman's	This is a good thread. Thanks to ya'll who have shared a some of their stories. I've struggled with my ED since I was 13 or so. I have EDNOS. I struggled with COE for a couple of years and that's how I went from a size 6 to a size 30 in 2 years! At 290 lbs, I knew I had to do something. In Feb 2004, I started Atkins and that really curbed my out of control eating. I lost 145 lbs in 18 months which was way cool. I got off of LC and gained back up to 170 in 2006. I was scared that I was going to end up back at square 1. I started LCing and lost about 10 lbs. I was fine there until I started working at a bar. Then I kind of felt pressured to look a certain way to bring in tips. I started really restricting and using laxatives at that time. I went from a size 14 to size 6 in 2 months. Then I met my bf and of course I've gained some weight back. We ate out a lot and drank a lot in the beginning of our relationship. So...... finally I'm back to trying to lose weight by following LC. The weight is not coming off as fast as I would like but at least it is healthier. It is a vicious cycle. I think about food 24/7. I haven't had an official weigh in for several months. I'm a little scared of what the scale will say and that it will put me into a tailspin. So for now I'm staying off the blasted thing. Anyway, good luck everyone! This is a hard row to hoe but we can do it! __________________ "Only a biker knows why a dog sticks his head out of a car window." 290/159.6/135 Started Atkins Feb 2004 at 290 lbs Reached Goal of 145 lbs June 2005 Back Up to 165 April 2008

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10-24-2007, 03:30 PM	#3
wittykitten Senior LCF Member Join Date: Oct 2007 Location: NC Posts: 80 Gallery: wittykitten Stats: 229/213.4/125 WOE: Atkins Start Date: October 5th 2007	thanks for your message. Im sorry to hear that you have also struggled with eds..but glad that you are recovering. Congrats on your weight loss so far...im 5 feet tall and would love to be 145 right now:-)but i will be there one day.

10-26-2007, 03:22 PM	#4
cardenas5usa MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: PDX, Oregon Posts: 1,218 Gallery: cardenas5usa Stats: 212.2/157/145 WOE: Lower Carb, moderate fat, lots of exercise Start Date: Originally 11/2004 (235) This time 11/15/06 (212)	I am glad both of you are here! It is a great place to be. All I can say is that I understand....I am not ready to fess up to all that I have done, but since I started here I have tried very hard to find a new way to relate to food, and it has worked so far. Keep your spirits up and know that we are all here to help each other succeed.

10-26-2007, 06:04 PM	#5
wittykitten Senior LCF Member Join Date: Oct 2007 Location: NC Posts: 80 Gallery: wittykitten Stats: 229/213.4/125 WOE: Atkins Start Date: October 5th 2007	thanks for your message and congrats on ur weightloss so far!

11-03-2007, 08:28 AM	#17
wittykitten Senior LCF Member Join Date: Oct 2007 Location: NC Posts: 80 Gallery: wittykitten Stats: 229/213.4/125 WOE: Atkins Start Date: October 5th 2007	Hayley, sorry to hear about your struggles with eating disorders but its good to see you are heading in the right direction now. Congrats on your weightloss so far!