Filling the Void with Food - June

[momov2boys]

Bobbin and thank you for welcoming me here!

[saundra41]

Welcome to you momov2boys! Glad that you ar here, when I think about how much you weigh OMG it came to my head that I carry 3 people of your body weight. Sometimes I ask myself how did I get here and I honestly could not tell you. I have lived my life in a binge fog, isnt that something. Wow good for you I hear ya plz dont let your weight get to out of control because it is a constant struggle for me now that I have the awareness that I need to change.

[brilliant100]

Originally Posted by saundra41

Brilliant-hey girl, feeling guilty huh? Never even thought about starting a guilt list. OMG if I did my food choices would always be on there. Why would gum be on your guilty list, maybe if you can answer that question than you can get some insight on if it belongs on the list or not. Your mom still at your house, how long will she be in town?

Gum is on my guilty list becasue I am binging on it. I feel like its a binge cuz it becomes compulsive and I eat 2-3 packs (14 pcs each) a day. Always leads to horrible belly pain from fake sugar yet................i keep doing it.


Mom is still here and so far things are going well. Its strange having a house guest and being married. My family is accustom to visiting my home and doing whatever they want cuz I really did not mind or care when single. Therefore mom got her way on everything and I catered to her. Now my husband and child's needs come before hers and she knows it. Seems like she respects the change but its a boundry shift for she and I. My mother is spoiled by us (dad, me).

This may be wrong to say but I am looking forward to her leaving. 2 weeks is a long time to stay at someones house. She is not doing anything wrong but I really dont have the energy to take care of another person on top of all the other things going on. Take care meaning make sure she is ok and is not bored of feeling neglected I love her dearly but wish they would get a hotel and car rental when they come into town. I know most people cannot afford this but............................

[brilliant100]

Originally Posted by moonbeam_2

Hey everyone....Checking in again.

Brilliant: I leave for Vegas Sunday. I'm excited about my massages scheduled every day.
Food is doing ok. Not low carb, but portioned.

Waving to everyone! Have a great day

Your going to have a ball. How long will you be there?

[brilliant100]

Momov2boys! nice to meet ya.

[momov2boys]

Hi there saundra41 and brilliant100. Thanks for the welcome!

saundra...yes, every aspect of bingeing totally sucks. Here's to us taking control. To living again, instead of eating. We can do it!

I'm with you brilliant...Having any house guests for more than a few days is overwhelming. I'm one that always feels the need to please others, so I end up serving not only my children and husband first, but the needs of guests as well, before even thinking about my own. Having people stay for any length of time is just plain stressful. Hang in there.

I'm taking in only liquids for a few days to take my mind off of food for a bit. (I am not fasting--I'm just sticking to EAS shakes, coffee w/cream, diet drinks and wine ). It really is helping me get perspective on things.

After my horrible week, last week, I'm up in weight, my acne is horrible, and I've learned many valuable lessons.

This gal is placing the monster back in the closet, where it belongs!

Happy Wednesday, everyone!

[brilliant100]

Momov - interesting that sticking to liquids helps you. Ive never considered doing it your way but I think that would be a nice change of pace. I may consider this to get me over this hump. Love a plan that includes wine

Have you noticed whether or not aspertame in diet drinks triggers cravings or feelings of depression? Ive noticed that if I get to much of it, these two issues become a problem. Even noticed it with splenda but it takes a lot more to get me to that point.

Its hard to find diet drinks with only splenda (sucralose). Many have both spenda and aspertame . So far, ive noticed bottled crystal light, and some energy drinks. Any other suggestions?

[momov2boys]

I usually drink Diet Rite which is sweetened with Splenda.

Too much aspartame gives me headaches.

(Don't do the liquid thing...)
It led me to a binge this afternoon.


AAAHHH!!!

[steady]

Originally Posted by Bobbin

I must clarify, it's only a SPRINT distance Tri, meaning 1/2 mile lake swim, 12 mile bike, then a 5k run, which I may end up crawling through! As long as I finish, I'll be thrilled!

Hey Girl! I'm still very impressed and in awe!

[steady]

Hey Girls:
We are all having a bit of trouble these days. Some haven't been posting, which makes me worry about them. Yesterday, I declared I am going to make it 6 days without a binge, because I usually have an episode every 3 days that means "missing" only one binge...that doesn't sound too hard (but I know it can be hard). I feel I've taken the focus off food/diet and put it onto the challenge to avoid a binge potholes. Day 1 was successful. Day 2 is looking pretty good, and Day 3 I have pretty much planned out to avoid potholes...but who knows I've just planned blocks of time. I am psyched though...looking forward to tomorrow for once.

I like journaling, but I also like looking ahead with some "attainable" mini-goal. Just like reaching other big goals (eg. weighloss, degrees) breaking it down into steps or mini goal might just be the road to success.
And from what I hear from other members the longer they stay binge-free the easier it gets. I guess it is sort of like building a new routine or habit.

Bobbin yesterday rose up to the challenge and declared she is going to attempt 3 days binge free.

Bobbin- how did day 1 go?

[Bobbin]

Today hasn't been too bad, foodwise. I've eaten normal quantities of normal foods, an egg for breakfast, and a chicken/black bean/salsa/lettuce bowl for lunch. I did eat 2 choc. chip cookies, but they were small, and I actually don't care at this moment. If they lead me down a frosting covered path later, then I'll care.

I am going to get a couple of books tonight, Intuitive Eating & Dr. Thompsons Glycemic Load books. My friends shrink told her to try the intuitive eating thing instead of obsessing over/trying any new diets. His thinking is how can you ever lose your obsession with food and your body, if all you ever think about is....food and your body. All I know is the minute I stop obsessing over food, I end up 10 lbs heavier!

[Bobbin]

Originally Posted by steady

Bobbin yesterday rose up to the challenge and declared she is going to attempt 3 days binge free.

Bobbin- how did day 1 go?

Who, me? I didn't binge....I didn't follow any "plan" though. I tried to eat healthy, and did stay out of the sugar. I didn't feel like I lost control at any point....That's big, too considering I had dinner with my mom AND grandma, both of whom love to point out the state of my body...

[steady]

Originally Posted by Bobbin

Who, me? I didn't binge....I didn't follow any "plan" though. I tried to eat healthy, and did stay out of the sugar. I didn't feel like I lost control at any point....That's big, too considering I had dinner with my mom AND grandma, both of whom love to point out the state of my body...

Nice job..that's what I am talking about!

Someone dropped off a scoop of ice cream on my desk. I actually didn't want it at all, but they must have thought I was hungry because I was eating a salad as a snack at 3 pm. I took just a lick to acknowledge the gesture and not feel completely deprived..actually I found it sickening sweet and threw the rest out.

[steady]

Originally Posted by Bobbin

Today hasn't been too bad, foodwise. I've eaten normal quantities of normal foods.

I am going to get a couple of books tonight, Intuitive Eating & Dr. Thompsons Glycemic Load books. My friends shrink told her to try the intuitive eating thing instead of obsessing over/trying any new diets. His thinking is how can you ever lose your obsession with food and your body, if all you ever think about is....food and your body. All I know is the minute I stop obsessing over food, I end up 10 lbs heavier!

I haven't read the book but read about intuitive eating. I did apply some principles that worked for me for a long while, but let me know your thoughts about the book. I obviously need to go back to this.

I don't want to be obsessed with food. Just like you said you did, eating normal quantities of normal food...I just want this everyday.

[hawkwife]

Hello ladies!

Just happened to stumble on your page...ok if I come join??

I have struggled with my weight, and been obssessed with food ever since I can remember. I did finally make it to about 185 in 2005, then got preg. with baby #2. Now that baby is 14 months old, and I think I weigh about 215!

I would really love some support, and you seem like a great group.

I start out great, sometimes I can make it a few days on LC eating, most of the time I cannot and I totally binge out...getting tired of all this. Just want to get healthy and fit so I can be with my dh and 2 beautiful kids as long as possible.



Jen

[steady]

Originally Posted by momov2boys

I usually drink Diet Rite which is sweetened with Splenda.

Too much aspartame gives me headaches.

(Don't do the liquid thing...)
It led me to a binge this afternoon.


AAAHHH!!!

Hi Rebecca:
What happened? Did the "no food" mindset get to you? too much Splenda? I can't have Splenda or AS...it causes cravings. Or did something stressful happen?

Don't worry about your weight. I bet if you can stop the binges you will lose the weight. At least that was what happened when I went LC. LC induction helped me immensely with the sugar cravings that I didn't binge for four months and lost 15 pounds I did not expect to lose. When I started climbing the carb ladder, some cravings came back...that led back to my binge behavior (where I am at today).

[steady]

Originally Posted by brilliant100

Gum is on my guilty list becasue I am binging on it. I feel like its a binge cuz it becomes compulsive and I eat 2-3 packs (14 pcs each) a day. Always leads to horrible belly pain from fake sugar yet................i keep doing it.


Mom is still here and so far things are going well. Its strange having a house guest and being married. My family is accustom to visiting my home and doing whatever they want cuz I really did not mind or care when single. Therefore mom got her way on everything and I catered to her. Now my husband and child's needs come before hers and she knows it. Seems like she respects the change but its a boundry shift for she and I. My mother is spoiled by us (dad, me).

This may be wrong to say but I am looking forward to her leaving. 2 weeks is a long time to stay at someones house. She is not doing anything wrong but I really dont have the energy to take care of another person on top of all the other things going on. Take care meaning make sure she is ok and is not bored of feeling neglected I love her dearly but wish they would get a hotel and car rental when they come into town. I know most people cannot afford this but............................

I think from prior post you usually eat alot of gum, but if your belly hurts ...you are probably bingeing on the gum...if no one was in the house (ie. mom, DH, DC) it would be food you'd be bingeing on. No offense (I am not trying to be harsh...just trying to make a connection). Seems like mom is totally (and btw completely understandably) bugging you out and you are also one not to hurt her feelings. I can tell it is really weighing on you...hang in there we are here for you!

[momov2boys]

Originally Posted by hawkwife

I start out great, sometimes I can make it a few days on LC eating, most of the time I cannot and I totally binge out...getting tired of all this. Just want to get healthy and fit so I can be with my dh and 2 beautiful kids as long as possible.

Hi Jen and !!!

We're all here for you.
Bingeing is rough...It is hard to get control of, but I do believe it's possible.

Read and post often.
Together we can be successful!

[momov2boys]

Bobbin--I think that Intuitive Eating is an awesome read with tons of very valuable information. I do not personally agree with its nutritional approach (which encourages grains, is lower in fat and limits protein). I also do not agree about unconditional permission to eat 'favorite foods.' The foods that I favor trigger me to overeat, even when I've tried not forbidding them for months.

(There are simply some foods that I cannot moderate, so I must eliminate them!)

I have recently ordered The Beck Diet Solution .
It is cognitive therapy and based upon changing the way we think and our behaviors regarding eating, long-term.

I think it will be a great book for anyone with eating issues and at any stage of weight management.

[momov2boys]

Originally Posted by steady

Hi Rebecca:
What happened? Did the "no food" mindset get to you?

I bet if you can stop the binges you will lose the weight.

Hi Steady. My calories were way too low on Tuesday. I know that is what helped push me to overeat.
That and I thought (for some reason nothing short of pure stupidity) that I could have just a bit of PB.

Well, after measuring out 1/4 C, I ended up eating about 3/4 C of it followed by LC ice cream, berries and then PB M&Ms.

Today is a new beginning, though...
Now that I've low-carbed for more than a year, it's high time for me to enjoy more freedom and peace...
I will now focus on eating healthy LC foods more than I will focus on my weight but less than I'll focus on my life.

I will eat protein, vegetables, some dairy, and some fruit, including wine!
Nothing will be "forbidden," but I will avoid nuts and peanut butter, as both trigger me to overeat.

Cheers to all of us for making Thursday a great day.
Let's all work hard to eat only when truly hungry and stop when comfortably full!

[steady]

HI Jen---Nice to meet you. We are here to support you. You can do it.

Rebecca- Here's to Thursday!!! Cheers!!!

[PhotoMama]

Hello Everyone ... Remember me? Hello to all the new people too.

This week has been the week from "h-e-double hockey sticks"! I haven't gotten back on plan yet and it's cost me 6 freakin pounds!! I haven't even been to aerobics. I feel like crap. Before I was just irritated which I wrote off to being in ketosis but now I'm irritated, frustrated ... just down right ! My tummy's back to sticking out more than my boobs

I need to do something. I want to go back to LC .... but we're going to be out of town all next week at DH's parents house (for DS's 3rd birthday) and I know we're not going to be sticking to plan ... just trying to be honest here.

I need a good appetite suppressant. I've got about 20 days to get down to at least 135. I know it's possible I just .... I HAVE TO do this. If I don't, I don't know that I'll ever forgive myself.

BTW, I finally got a hold of the friend wanting to get rid of their treadmill. Hopefully it will be out of their house and into ours this weekend. I'm not going to hold my breath though ... although, passing out would keep me from eating for a while

[brilliant100]

Originally Posted by steady

I think from prior post you usually eat alot of gum, but if your belly hurts ...you are probably bingeing on the gum...if no one was in the house (ie. mom, DH, DC) it would be food you'd be bingeing on. No offense (I am not trying to be harsh...just trying to make a connection). Seems like mom is totally (and btw completely understandably) bugging you out and you are also one not to hurt her feelings. I can tell it is really weighing on you...hang in there we are here for you!

Steady - dont worry about being harsh. I really appreciate any advice you want to give. Your right about the gum replacing food . But I have a small victory to share. After posting how gum was on my guilt list then realizing how insignificant gum is in the big pic, I made an effort to not bring any gum to work. I had some in my desk but only ate two pcs. I noticed that I did not have any cravings yesterday. The gum chewing was trigger cravings even though I am taking all these crazy supplements to help with this. When I got home I had one pc of gum. This morning the scale was down two pounds and i felt wonderful. The sugar alcohols were giving me a hang over each morning. Fake sugar in excess makes me feel depressed and moody.

I know any minute i can turn back to the gum for comfort so this will be the 'binge' I will try to avoid with you over the next six days. This is a great idea too. When I first read your post I was thinking it did not apply to me........... I am losing weight slowly and still binging. This is a major Ahhh moment for me.

I am still amazed at the amount of guilt I felt from binging on gum. I want to be released from guilt. I think this feeling may be one of the major reasons I binge.

Guilt List
*Not maintaining a clean house
*Running out of things at home because I did not make a grocery list
*Letting the gas tank fall below 1/2 tank. If an emergency should occur we would not have enough gas and would have to waste time going to gas station. This is really important as we have a medically fragile child that could need to be taken to hospital at any time.
*Not budgeting or balancing my checking account

Working out was on the list but has been removed as I am doing mini workouts. Last night, 12 minutes eliminated the guilt . Had to stop cuz baby got fussy again.