I'm so mad at myself!

takecontrol · 01-05-2005, 09:46 AM

I did so good the first day. I didn't cheat at all and I drank all of my water. I even skipped out on my coffee....that's a big deal! Then yesterday I really wasn't craving anything, BUT, my husbands chocolate birthday cake was just sitting there, begging me to eat it. SO...I did. Then of course I went in and purged. I'm SO mad at myself

I have to learn to control those urges to just eat anything and everything. I wasn't even hungry at the time I ate that cake. I've got to learn how to "eat to live" not "live to eat".
Today is a new day and that's what matters. A fresh start....AGAIN!!!
I can do this.

Charity

takecontrol · 01-05-2005, 12:44 PM

testing my new signature

sweet123 · 01-07-2005, 04:44 PM

Hang in there. Yes, it is a new day and we have to keep remember that. I have been good all week, which is easier for me to do during the work week then on the weekend. So I will also try to be strong.

Mule_Freak · 01-11-2005, 12:27 PM

Hey Takecontrol,
I am so like you, makes me mad when I get those urges to binge/purge. I have to have to goodies in the house for my husband, he hates w/a passion anything to do w/low carbing. I have been so good with not binging. Several months w/out doing it. But it hit me bad Monday, I did so good until after dinner, all was well and then I say all the candy that my spouse had purchased on sale after Christmas, I thought I will just put one chocolate in my mouth and then spit it out, not even swallow, but I did eat it and then more, and as you said I ran to the restroom and you know the rest. I looked in the mirrow and wanted to scream at myself, face all red and puffie, tears running down my face from forcing every ounce of food out of my body, I feel like a bunghole, but I have started a new day and I will NOT do it again, I have to be strong, I have removed all of his nasty candy, goodies in to the freezer so out of my sight! I can do this and so can you, we have to be strong for each other and all others, I will pray for you (if thats ok) with the Lords help I know we can do this, take care please

Sherrie

takecontrol · 01-11-2005, 02:24 PM

Mule_Freak,
Definitely praying for me is welcome. I myself pray for those in need.
You are right...we can do this. Support from this site is such a help. And to know that I'm not alone in the way I feel.
I did go to the doctor today. He helped a lot and He wants me on South Beach, rather than Atkins. So, I will be reading the book this weekend and switching to the South Beach eating plan next week. I also have set it up to go in every two weeks to have his nurse weigh me. I think that will help. Stay strong and stay focused. Each day is a NEW day. Eat one day at a time!
WE CAN DO THIS!!!

Mule_Freak · 01-12-2005, 10:58 AM

You got it Charity, for sure WE HAVE TO DO IT

I want to be around for a long while, and for sure you do to, right

Knowing I am not alone on this helps me too, last nite I went home and made my low carb dinner and thought of you and our post and was good as gold, stayed clear of the "tidy bowl" and very clear of the xmas candy. Well good luck on South Beach, and for sure lots of prays going to you and everyone else, you need ever a shoulder pm me ok

always here to help and very good listner. Many {{HUGS}}

llucky51464 · 02-06-2005, 05:13 PM

01-05-2005, 09:46 AM	#1
takecontrol Junior LCF Member Join Date: Dec 2004 Location: OR Posts: 16 Gallery: takecontrol Stats: 192/188/135 (5'4") WOE: Atkins Start Date: 1/3/05	I'm so mad at myself! I did so good the first day. I didn't cheat at all and I drank all of my water. I even skipped out on my coffee....that's a big deal! Then yesterday I really wasn't craving anything, BUT, my husbands chocolate birthday cake was just sitting there, begging me to eat it. SO...I did. Then of course I went in and purged. I'm SO mad at myself I have to learn to control those urges to just eat anything and everything. I wasn't even hungry at the time I ate that cake. I've got to learn how to "eat to live" not "live to eat". Today is a new day and that's what matters. A fresh start....AGAIN!!! I can do this. Charity

01-11-2005, 12:27 PM	#4
Mule_Freak MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Oct 2004 Location: Ohio Posts: 2,220 Gallery: Mule_Freak Stats: 145/125-130/135 WOE: moderate carbs Start Date: Oct. 2003	Hey Takecontrol, I am so like you, makes me mad when I get those urges to binge/purge. I have to have to goodies in the house for my husband, he hates w/a passion anything to do w/low carbing. I have been so good with not binging. Several months w/out doing it. But it hit me bad Monday, I did so good until after dinner, all was well and then I say all the candy that my spouse had purchased on sale after Christmas, I thought I will just put one chocolate in my mouth and then spit it out, not even swallow, but I did eat it and then more, and as you said I ran to the restroom and you know the rest. I looked in the mirrow and wanted to scream at myself, face all red and puffie, tears running down my face from forcing every ounce of food out of my body, I feel like a bunghole, but I have started a new day and I will NOT do it again, I have to be strong, I have removed all of his nasty candy, goodies in to the freezer so out of my sight! I can do this and so can you, we have to be strong for each other and all others, I will pray for you (if thats ok) with the Lords help I know we can do this, take care please Sherrie __________________ Sherrie 5' 8 Be A Voice for the Voiceless Just Say NO to Animal Abuse I my Scottish Terrier Quinn From the land of Heather Junie-B my bel rescue horse He's come a LONG way : ) PETERBILT King of the Road

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01-05-2005, 12:44 PM	#2
takecontrol Junior LCF Member Join Date: Dec 2004 Location: OR Posts: 16 Gallery: takecontrol Stats: 192/188/135 (5'4") WOE: Atkins Start Date: 1/3/05	testing my new signature

01-07-2005, 04:44 PM	#3
sweet123 MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Jul 2003 Location: Vancouver BC Canada Posts: 1,432 Gallery: sweet123	Hang in there. Yes, it is a new day and we have to keep remember that. I have been good all week, which is easier for me to do during the work week then on the weekend. So I will also try to be strong.

01-11-2005, 02:24 PM	#5
takecontrol Junior LCF Member Join Date: Dec 2004 Location: OR Posts: 16 Gallery: takecontrol Stats: 192/188/135 (5'4") WOE: Atkins Start Date: 1/3/05	Mule_Freak, Definitely praying for me is welcome. I myself pray for those in need. You are right...we can do this. Support from this site is such a help. And to know that I'm not alone in the way I feel. I did go to the doctor today. He helped a lot and He wants me on South Beach, rather than Atkins. So, I will be reading the book this weekend and switching to the South Beach eating plan next week. I also have set it up to go in every two weeks to have his nurse weigh me. I think that will help. Stay strong and stay focused. Each day is a NEW day. Eat one day at a time! WE CAN DO THIS!!!

01-12-2005, 10:58 AM	#6
Mule_Freak MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Oct 2004 Location: Ohio Posts: 2,220 Gallery: Mule_Freak Stats: 145/125-130/135 WOE: moderate carbs Start Date: Oct. 2003	You got it Charity, for sure WE HAVE TO DO IT I want to be around for a long while, and for sure you do to, right Knowing I am not alone on this helps me too, last nite I went home and made my low carb dinner and thought of you and our post and was good as gold, stayed clear of the "tidy bowl" and very clear of the xmas candy. Well good luck on South Beach, and for sure lots of prays going to you and everyone else, you need ever a shoulder pm me ok always here to help and very good listner. Many {{HUGS}}

02-06-2005, 05:13 PM	#7
llucky51464 Senior LCF Member Join Date: Nov 2004 Location: mich. Posts: 80 Gallery: llucky51464 Stats: 300/171/155/5'9 WOE: atkins Start Date: march 2004