New and NEED support!

[takecontrol]

Hi Everyone,
I'm new to lowcarbfriends.com and I'm praying that this is the support I need.
I've been bulimic for 15 years of my life. I started binging and purging when I was 12. I went through a period in my life where I was anorexic and bulimic in high school. When I met my husband and became pregnant with our first child I gained over 60 pounds. I did however lose 50 of that 60, then 3 years later I became pregnant with our second child. I again gained a massive amount of weight. I never lost more than 20 pounds before I became pregnant with our third child 3 years later. Now I'm heavier than I ever have been and I feel completely out of control. I don't even recognize myself. I hate this person I've become. My husband doesn't understand my battle with food. He doesn't understand that my bulimia is a disease.
Today is my first day lowcarbing again and I already feel better about myself. I know this is going to work.
I'm looking forward to getting to know you all.
Thanks for reading my post.

charity

[sweet123]

I am a binge eater. Sometimes my mind is always on food. I go all day without eating and then at night, I eat tons of food. I started the low carb WOE in March 2003 and lost 57 pounds. I did manage to control my binging to a certain degree but it was always there. I have now gained back 30 pounds and feel like I am out of control again. I have promised myself that I will stop for the new year! I call it my "demon" and I fight to control it. I understand what you are going through, even if I have never been a purger. Post often to this board and remember a lot of people are going there the same thing you are and have even conquered it

[northnstar]

charity-just know that you are not alone.

Post anytime the need arises.

[takecontrol]

sweet123 & northnstar,

Thanks so much for the response. I have made up my mind this time that I don't have a choice. My kids need me and if I go on living the life I have for the past 15 years, I won't be here much longer to be their mommy. That, and the support from all of you, is what's going to get me through this.
I'm going to the doctor on the 5th of Jan and having a complete blood workup done so I can track everything.
Please, if you guys ever need support, know that I'm here to help as well.

Thanks again! I'm going to love this place.
Charity

[rae_rae21]

Hi Charity,

I too, struggle with purging. I have done it on and off since I was in high school. I've always been thin and very athletic. I was a cheerlleader and tennis player in high school, so the thought of getting "fat" terrified me. After having 2 kids, I did gain a lot of weight, and have since been struggling with the purging again. Sometimes I also binge/purge, but I just feel sooo scared that the weight I've lost will come creeping up on me again. This is my first post on this thread, so I'm kinda nervous admitting it, but I'm working on it. I too wanna live for my kids, and I just need to remember that they are what matter, not so much my addicition to being "pretty". Good Luck!

A

181(post preggo)/139/125

[takecontrol]

Originally posted by rae_rae21


I too wanna live for my kids, and I just need to remember that they are what matter, not so much my addicition to being "pretty".

I know exactly what you mean about being addicted to being "pretty". I was always bigger when I was younger...and I was kind of homely. People say that I'm an ugly duckling story. But at this point in my life, I feel like I turned back into that ugly duckling and am defintely NOT that beautiful SWAN that I so long to be again! I don't think that I'm an ugly person, but I feel very unattractive right now because of my weight. I'm really searching to find "that right diet" for me. I know that lowcarbing is a woe, but I also have a MAJOR addiction to sugar and am having a heck of a time kicking it. I go to the doctor on the 5th for help and a complete blood work up.

Thanks again to all of you. It makes it much easier when we can type/talk about it!
Take care.....

charity