Question/Thought for the day, 12/27/04

[SilkAsha]

Do you honor your commitments to others more than you honor commitments to yourself? Do you find yourself resentful towards others when your needs don't get met because of this?



YES! As you might have guessed, an experience this morning prompted this one. I promised myself I wasn't going to step on the scale in MIL's bathroom every morning while I was here. So where did I find myself this morning? That's right! On the scale! I made a commitment to myself, for my own sanity, and I didn't honor it. Meanwhile, it's been easy for me to stay away form Frankenfoods because I made a deal with my sister that I would. Even though both these agreements were for me, it was much easier to honor the one I had said out loud to someone else... I guess I really feel it would be nice if I respected myself as much as I do everyone else, and if I felt that disapointing myself were MORE of a problem than disapointing others.

And this sort of relates to the difference for me between losing weight to look good vs. eating healthy for my own sanity and physical well being. I tend to focus more on external reinforcement than on adhereing to my own beliefs, morals, etc.

UGH!