Question/Though for the day, 12/21/04

SilkAsha · 12-21-2004, 08:38 AM

What things have you done around your eating or your weight that have been disrespectful to others?

Ok, This is really hard for me (shameful). What's difficult for me is that I went over this when I got clean the first time, and here I am again having to admit to the same behaviors

This is kinda like a 4th(?)step inventory I think, and some may not be in a space to anser this one, but it's weighing on my mind, so here goes my stuff (still not ready to "make amends"...)

1) sitting my 7 year old in front of a movie so I could binge and purge
2)Lying to EVERYONE about how much I was eating
3) not being able to be present for my family because i was sick from overeating the day befoe
4) not being able to be intimate with my husband because I was so bloated from overeating
5)spending family money on binges
6)general bad attitude that comes from the process of denial and "it's everyone else's fault" thinking I get stuck in
7)all the bad stuff which happens when I'm depressed.... which I am as a direct result of not treating my body right.

puttchikins · 12-21-2004, 03:26 PM

BTDT..believe me we all have

what comes to my mind are things like buying a cake then eating so much I didn't want anyone else to know so I polished off the whole thing....(P.S. it was a cannoli cake just deliscious)

anyway the last few days have been absolute hell..Its christmas and I want to bake cookies and cakes and especially fudge...I keep telling myself its to give away but we all know thats not the real reason...I keep telling myself to hang tough no one will care if I send flowers instead of baking for them...but I am not going near a grocery store for the next few dayssssssssssss..I am a food addict 1 cookie is as bad for me as a drink to an alcoholic...I have an addictive personality I need to control...

loadislight · 12-21-2004, 08:00 PM

SilkAsha,

Thanks for the thought. I have listed the two things that quickly come to mind below. There are many others, but I’m running out of time (or am in denial).
- Making food my God. Instead of relying on God to fill the holes in my life, I have often chosen food to make me feel OK or just numb the pain.
- Isolating from my family – sneaking food and hiding away to binge.

David C.

brilliant100 · 12-29-2004, 07:28 AM

Lying about how much I eat when asked.

Avoiding friends/family if I feel fat or bloated

Not inviting friends over to my new home because it will interfere with my evening/weekend snack marathons.

12-21-2004, 08:38 AM	#1
SilkAsha Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Albuquerque, Land of Entrapment Posts: 222 Gallery: SilkAsha	Question/Though for the day, 12/21/04 What things have you done around your eating or your weight that have been disrespectful to others? Ok, This is really hard for me (shameful). What's difficult for me is that I went over this when I got clean the first time, and here I am again having to admit to the same behaviors This is kinda like a 4th(?)step inventory I think, and some may not be in a space to anser this one, but it's weighing on my mind, so here goes my stuff (still not ready to "make amends"...) 1) sitting my 7 year old in front of a movie so I could binge and purge 2)Lying to EVERYONE about how much I was eating 3) not being able to be present for my family because i was sick from overeating the day befoe 4) not being able to be intimate with my husband because I was so bloated from overeating 5)spending family money on binges 6)general bad attitude that comes from the process of denial and "it's everyone else's fault" thinking I get stuck in 7)all the bad stuff which happens when I'm depressed.... which I am as a direct result of not treating my body right. __________________ Low carb since June 2000. And now that I've gained it back, I at least know what DOESN'T work You can fool your brain, but you can't fool your body

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12-21-2004, 03:26 PM	#2
puttchikins Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jan 2003 Location: Florida Posts: 992 Gallery: puttchikins	BTDT..believe me we all have what comes to my mind are things like buying a cake then eating so much I didn't want anyone else to know so I polished off the whole thing....(P.S. it was a cannoli cake just deliscious) anyway the last few days have been absolute hell..Its christmas and I want to bake cookies and cakes and especially fudge...I keep telling myself its to give away but we all know thats not the real reason...I keep telling myself to hang tough no one will care if I send flowers instead of baking for them...but I am not going near a grocery store for the next few dayssssssssssss..I am a food addict 1 cookie is as bad for me as a drink to an alcoholic...I have an addictive personality I need to control...

12-21-2004, 08:00 PM	#3
loadislight Junior LCF Member Join Date: Sep 2004 Location: Fairfax, Virginia Posts: 29 Gallery: loadislight Stats: 268/249/174 WOE: Atkins Start Date: 9/18/04	SilkAsha, Thanks for the thought. I have listed the two things that quickly come to mind below. There are many others, but I’m running out of time (or am in denial). - Making food my God. Instead of relying on God to fill the holes in my life, I have often chosen food to make me feel OK or just numb the pain. - Isolating from my family – sneaking food and hiding away to binge. David C.

12-29-2004, 07:28 AM	#4
brilliant100 MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Oct 2000 Location: Western, USA Posts: 2,444 Gallery: brilliant100 Stats: 266/194/169 WOE: Atkins/M&E Feast, Lower fat & Lower calorie Start Date: restarted 6/1/05 M/E, back on the wagon 8-21-07	Lying about how much I eat when asked. Avoiding friends/family if I feel fat or bloated Not inviting friends over to my new home because it will interfere with my evening/weekend snack marathons.