What is wrong with me?

suthngal68 · 09-13-2004, 10:39 AM

I am at work with not a lot going on. I am so miserable I can hardly stand myself these days. I have been on these boards from time to time - typically when I feel like I am doing okay and in control. However, I am at the lowest of lows in my life right now. I don't know where to start or what to do. I lost a good bit of weight about two years ago for my wedding (2 marriage) and gained it all back. I am just struggling and eating out of control. What is wrong with me? Why can't I get motivated again? Why can't I keep weight off when I work SO hard to loose it? I don't think my husband is that attracted to me I know he loves me but let's face it men are visual. period. I am have such a terrible image of myself I never change in front of him and I always hide away. I have exercise equipment right in my house a treadmill and a weight machine. I don't ever make the trip to the basement to knock the dust off. I am smoking more that ever and I can't seem to stop that either. I just feel like I can't over come these demons that I battle. I started back on induction today and I am not telling anybody that isn't on this site. I am not going to go on and on about it all and make a big deal out of this. I know everybody is SICK of hearing that I am going to do it and that I am back watching what I eat again. It is almost like the boy who cried wolf I think. I just need help and support.

LowCarbingIt4Life · 09-15-2004, 12:58 AM

Hey! I am a registered nurse and I think you might be suffering from depression. Have you been to talk to your doctor? It's really no big deal. I have been recently diagnosied last year and I just thought I was working all the time and tired and just unhappy. Since that time I have felt better and lost about 40 pounds. I started amking time to exercise since it helps and I feel so much better. Just a suggestion. TONS of people have it. After I started talking about it, people were coming out of the woodwork to tell me about them.

USMCmom · 09-15-2004, 11:16 AM

I know how hard it can be to jump right back on the wagon once you've fallen off. I've been there several times myself. Sometimes you just have to tell yourself that you're going to start over and do it until you reach your goal this time. I think once you get started again, you'll do o.k. It's getting started again that is hard. Just think how good you will feel and look when you lose the weight again. If it makes you feel better to keep it to yourself, that's fine. I don't bother telling people that I'm LC'ing. I actually find it easier to stay on plan that way for some reason.

Now, go get that exercise machine out of the basement, dust it off, and start using it first thing tomorrow morning!

Good luck!

ps - if you just absolutely don't feel like you can get back into it, then Lawcarbingit4life may be right...

melantine · 09-16-2004, 09:28 AM

I feel your pain. You may be depressed. i know i have suffered depression all my adult life and meds really do help to bring you out of it. If this feeling keeps up be sure and talk to your Dr. about it

Also, I know this will be the last thing you will feel like doing, but tonight, after supper, go for a nice walk. Don't push yourself, just take a nice stroll. Take along a headset for music or enjoy the birds singing and just walk at whatever pace you are comfortable with. Imagine with every step you take you are burning fat. Enjoy your time alone and enjoy the day. Believe me, from experience i know this is such a mood lifter and before you know it you will look forward to this alone time to reflect on your goals and dreams.

appalossas · 09-21-2004, 12:06 PM

It is possible you are depressed, it could be your depressed about your weight and then it just gets into a vicious cycle. I know how you feel, if the weight don't come off, I feel unhappy, yesterday I went to Curves and had not been in 2 months I had to do lots of self talking to get myself there. Unbelievablly, it helped so much, when I left I though wow I did it, I actually went after 2 months!! So Please don't let this continue, it WILL NOT GET BETTER AND IN THE MONTHS DOWN THE ROAD IT WILL BE EVEN HARDER, YOU HAVE THE POWER TO TURN IT AROUND.
My daugher was depressed, the docs put her on Zoloft 50 mg a day and it has turned her around, she was eating just as you say also. Now she is doing well and not eating like before....
I wish you luck!!! Keep checking in with all of us. Just don't think about it and get on that treadmill.............

manalu · 09-30-2004, 09:55 AM

Sthngal,
It does sound like depression to me as well. I also struggle with this, especially as I began peri-menopause. So now I am on Zoloft, just to take the edge off. I feel so much better!!
I would speak to your primary care doctor......I hope you have one that is caring and compassionate....otherwise I would speak to your gyn.
I will be praying for you. God will see you through this. May He give you the wisdom and strength you need to seek help.

Nancy

09-13-2004, 10:39 AM	#1
suthngal68 Guest Join Date: Sep 2002 Location: Alabaster, AL Posts: 72 Gallery: suthngal68 Stats: 210/199.5/140 WOE: Atkins Start Date: 05/25/04	What is wrong with me? I am at work with not a lot going on. I am so miserable I can hardly stand myself these days. I have been on these boards from time to time - typically when I feel like I am doing okay and in control. However, I am at the lowest of lows in my life right now. I don't know where to start or what to do. I lost a good bit of weight about two years ago for my wedding (2 marriage) and gained it all back. I am just struggling and eating out of control. What is wrong with me? Why can't I get motivated again? Why can't I keep weight off when I work SO hard to loose it? I don't think my husband is that attracted to me I know he loves me but let's face it men are visual. period. I am have such a terrible image of myself I never change in front of him and I always hide away. I have exercise equipment right in my house a treadmill and a weight machine. I don't ever make the trip to the basement to knock the dust off. I am smoking more that ever and I can't seem to stop that either. I just feel like I can't over come these demons that I battle. I started back on induction today and I am not telling anybody that isn't on this site. I am not going to go on and on about it all and make a big deal out of this. I know everybody is SICK of hearing that I am going to do it and that I am back watching what I eat again. It is almost like the boy who cried wolf I think. I just need help and support.

09-15-2004, 11:16 AM	#3
USMCmom Very Gabby LCF Member!!! Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: Texas Posts: 3,149 Gallery: USMCmom Stats: size 14/10/8 WOE: stop eating so much Start Date: 2/2003	I know how hard it can be to jump right back on the wagon once you've fallen off. I've been there several times myself. Sometimes you just have to tell yourself that you're going to start over and do it until you reach your goal this time. I think once you get started again, you'll do o.k. It's getting started again that is hard. Just think how good you will feel and look when you lose the weight again. If it makes you feel better to keep it to yourself, that's fine. I don't bother telling people that I'm LC'ing. I actually find it easier to stay on plan that way for some reason. Now, go get that exercise machine out of the basement, dust it off, and start using it first thing tomorrow morning! Good luck! ps - if you just absolutely don't feel like you can get back into it, then Lawcarbingit4life may be right... __________________ Christi

09-16-2004, 09:28 AM	#4
melantine Stacy's Mom Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: BFE Nebraska Posts: 8,366 Gallery: melantine Stats: 178/140 (ugh holiday weight)/ 130 WOE: strict l/c Start Date: July 5, 2004	I feel your pain. You may be depressed. i know i have suffered depression all my adult life and meds really do help to bring you out of it. If this feeling keeps up be sure and talk to your Dr. about it Also, I know this will be the last thing you will feel like doing, but tonight, after supper, go for a nice walk. Don't push yourself, just take a nice stroll. Take along a headset for music or enjoy the birds singing and just walk at whatever pace you are comfortable with. Imagine with every step you take you are burning fat. Enjoy your time alone and enjoy the day. Believe me, from experience i know this is such a mood lifter and before you know it you will look forward to this alone time to reflect on your goals and dreams. __________________ **** melissa ** "Once you make a decision, the universe conspires to make it happen." - Emerson "Let 'em fly. I love CANADA!" posted in the bar by Flashin' Di "Di, the proper thing to say in here is, 'I gotta go powder my olive.' " - Rootbeer I wanna be Stacy's mom MY PICS ********* SGOTN™

09-21-2004, 12:06 PM	#5
appalossas Junior LCF Member Join Date: Jun 2003 Location: San Diego Posts: 13 Gallery: appalossas Stats: 168/157/147 WOE: Atkins low carbin! Started LFL May 30, 2004 Start Date: December 2003	It is possible you are depressed, it could be your depressed about your weight and then it just gets into a vicious cycle. I know how you feel, if the weight don't come off, I feel unhappy, yesterday I went to Curves and had not been in 2 months I had to do lots of self talking to get myself there. Unbelievablly, it helped so much, when I left I though wow I did it, I actually went after 2 months!! So Please don't let this continue, it WILL NOT GET BETTER AND IN THE MONTHS DOWN THE ROAD IT WILL BE EVEN HARDER, YOU HAVE THE POWER TO TURN IT AROUND. My daugher was depressed, the docs put her on Zoloft 50 mg a day and it has turned her around, she was eating just as you say also. Now she is doing well and not eating like before.... I wish you luck!!! Keep checking in with all of us. Just don't think about it and get on that treadmill............. __________________ Savannah

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09-15-2004, 12:58 AM	#2
LowCarbingIt4Life Senior LCF Member Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: Tennessee Posts: 156 Gallery: LowCarbingIt4Life Stats: 315/294/150 WOE: Gastric Bypass Start Date: RNY June 12th	Hey! I am a registered nurse and I think you might be suffering from depression. Have you been to talk to your doctor? It's really no big deal. I have been recently diagnosied last year and I just thought I was working all the time and tired and just unhappy. Since that time I have felt better and lost about 40 pounds. I started amking time to exercise since it helps and I feel so much better. Just a suggestion. TONS of people have it. After I started talking about it, people were coming out of the woodwork to tell me about them.

09-30-2004, 09:55 AM	#6
manalu Blabbermouth!!! Join Date: Jun 2004 Location: Queen-dumb Posts: 6,257 Gallery: manalu Stats: 26/20/???? WOE: Carb Addicts	Sthngal, It does sound like depression to me as well. I also struggle with this, especially as I began peri-menopause. So now I am on Zoloft, just to take the edge off. I feel so much better!! I would speak to your primary care doctor......I hope you have one that is caring and compassionate....otherwise I would speak to your gyn. I will be praying for you. God will see you through this. May He give you the wisdom and strength you need to seek help. Nancy