Bulimia and Anorexia support Aug 04

CKjinx'd · 08-12-2004, 05:25 PM

hey y'all! where have y'all gone? hehehe... I am still here.. just a little lax on the checking in. I have had a couple of episodes this month but i keep pluggin away and try not to let it get to me very much or i'll just keep breakin down.
it is really chilly up here in Mt already. It feels like fall. augh! my daughter goes back to school on Sept 7th and I miss her like h#ll already..hahaha. I am going to be really flipping out when she goes all day instead of just 3 hours a day.
I have made it to 49 lbs lost as of today. I don't know how to feel about that yet..it's alot of weight but I only took off 5 of that this month. it kinda upset me and I'm trying really hard to get a grip because i'll just wallow in self pity and then my binges aren't far behind. 49 lbs is alot of weight...that's 3 lbs heavier than my little girl. whoa!
*BIG HUGS TO ALL*

1BellaDonna · 08-13-2004, 01:00 AM

woooooooooooooo hoo!!!!!!!! congratulations on your 49 lbs, girl!! that is WONDERFUL! it may not be coming off as quickly as you'd like but the point is that it's COMING OFF!! you should be proud of yourself. think of it as having lost the mass of a little girl! to me that's major and i'm very proud of you!!!!

i'm still hanging at 146 and have fallen off the wagon here and there...primarily THERE but 3 days ago i ate a whole bag of twizzlers. once again, i was starving (didn't get a lunchbreak) and i grabbed SUGAR to satisfy my hunger. it's a really bad habit. i find i do it with sf candy too. i'm going to have to lock up my stuff. i had wanted to be down to 135 by the time my gf arrives from the states. we're going to the eolian islands and i'll have to wear a bathing suit.

oh yeah, i'm looking into a boob job now too, girls. this weight loss has taken a huge toll on them!!! no more full dd's...theyr'e horrendous now. i just pray i don' t get keloids. my skin has a tendency to do that.

well, i'm off...i gotta have some breakfast to counteract my vino from last night. had meals with 2 unattainable hotties yesterday and shared a bottle of wine with the last one. i hope i can be good this weekend and not purge. i started up again but it's nothing like it had been--10+ times/day. keep your fingers crossed that i don't muck it up!

hugs to you all!

-letty

CKjinx'd · 08-13-2004, 10:51 PM

hey letty!

Thanks...been trying to hang in there. I just get frustrated because i have soooooo much to lose before my body slows down and comes to a halt for a bit...some ppl stop losing after 9 months...and who knows how long those plateaus last..hehehehe...I will get over it though...49 lbs is nothing to sneeze at!

I'm just happy to be anything under where I was. thanks for the support Letty.

MindyK · 08-21-2004, 08:14 PM

I'm posting to continue to get this thread. I have my own story to tell about my own struggle with bulimia, but I don't have time to do it right now. However, I'm really glad to see this support board show up - wish there had been one to help me during the hardest years.

Hugs to all... will be back soon.

CKjinx'd · 08-26-2004, 02:01 PM

hey y'all! *BIG HUGS TO ALL* how is it going? I have been sick sick sick this week...blech....my stomach hurts soo much today...after I ate. *sigh* I'm still hanging in there low carb even though I"m sick..it makes it tough sometimes, though..hahaha... i can't really afford to go to the store...well, nothing really about it..at this time i can't afford to go to the store to get "soft" legal foods so like an idiot i ate a taco salad and augh...it hurts.
on the upside, haven't had an episode in a week or two...thanfully!!

randtbrown · 08-29-2004, 11:15 AM

I read about this thread in another thread in the main lobby. I have a history of binging and purging. Althought it has gotten much better, I still purge sometimes, but I don't really binge anymore per say. When i go out to dinner at a restruant or eat a little more than I wish I had at home I always purge it. As soon as I feel full, I feel the need to purge. It only happens about 2-3X a month now, better than all the time, but still not good.

But now, I'm worried I'm slipping the other direction. I never want to eat. I eat very little and I have really quit losing b/c I'm not eating enough, I think. I'm almost scared of food and would just rather go without. Has anyone ever switched like this? I'm going to start the Fat Fast on Monday to make myself be a little more structured with 200 calorie meals 5X a day.

As you all know, my issues with eating have very little to do with my weight. I come from an alcoholic/drug and OCD family, my vice has always been food- I don't touch alcohol or drugs.

I am in therapy. But sometimes it is nice to talk to those to actually have gone through it.

Thanks for listening!

CKjinx'd · 08-30-2004, 02:21 PM

hey rb, I hear you. My vice has always been food, too...I live on a reservation and it's a pretty depressing place to be. My mom was a single parent and an alcoholic/drug abuser and she didn't have much control or wherewithal to even be around much. If there was something else to do, she was gone...most of the time. Sooooo....I ate and ate and ate and ate. When I got older, i got into the alcohol scene...when I was 23 I had a MAJOR problem with alcohol. *sigh* after I quit drinking completely, I noticed my obsession with food picked up again. *sigh* Addictive personality..that's me..hehehe.

08-12-2004, 05:25 PM	#1
CKjinx'd MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Feb 2003 Location: Minnesota Posts: 2,548 Gallery: CKjinx'd Stats: 438/??/175 WOE: Back to Atkins!! woot! Start Date: re-start Oct 28, 2007	Bulimia and Anorexia support Aug 04 hey y'all! where have y'all gone? hehehe... I am still here.. just a little lax on the checking in. I have had a couple of episodes this month but i keep pluggin away and try not to let it get to me very much or i'll just keep breakin down. it is really chilly up here in Mt already. It feels like fall. augh! my daughter goes back to school on Sept 7th and I miss her like h#ll already..hahaha. I am going to be really flipping out when she goes all day instead of just 3 hours a day. I have made it to 49 lbs lost as of today. I don't know how to feel about that yet..it's alot of weight but I only took off 5 of that this month. it kinda upset me and I'm trying really hard to get a grip because i'll just wallow in self pity and then my binges aren't far behind. 49 lbs is alot of weight...that's 3 lbs heavier than my little girl. whoa! BIG HUGS TO ALL __________________ Lord, give me the courage to change the things i can...

08-13-2004, 01:00 AM	#2
1BellaDonna Senior LCF Member Join Date: Jan 2003 Location: Italy (Carbohydrate Mecca) Posts: 547 Gallery: 1BellaDonna Stats: 174/143/135 5'8"-now wearing size 4 & 6 pants!! WOE: Atkins & a variety of stallbusters Start Date: 1 January 2003	woooooooooooooo hoo!!!!!!!! congratulations on your 49 lbs, girl!! that is WONDERFUL! it may not be coming off as quickly as you'd like but the point is that it's COMING OFF!! you should be proud of yourself. think of it as having lost the mass of a little girl! to me that's major and i'm very proud of you!!!! i'm still hanging at 146 and have fallen off the wagon here and there...primarily THERE but 3 days ago i ate a whole bag of twizzlers. once again, i was starving (didn't get a lunchbreak) and i grabbed SUGAR to satisfy my hunger. it's a really bad habit. i find i do it with sf candy too. i'm going to have to lock up my stuff. i had wanted to be down to 135 by the time my gf arrives from the states. we're going to the eolian islands and i'll have to wear a bathing suit. oh yeah, i'm looking into a boob job now too, girls. this weight loss has taken a huge toll on them!!! no more full dd's...theyr'e horrendous now. i just pray i don' t get keloids. my skin has a tendency to do that. well, i'm off...i gotta have some breakfast to counteract my vino from last night. had meals with 2 unattainable hotties yesterday and shared a bottle of wine with the last one. i hope i can be good this weekend and not purge. i started up again but it's nothing like it had been--10+ times/day. keep your fingers crossed that i don't muck it up! hugs to you all! -letty __________________ "Pork rinds are the miracle food!"

08-29-2004, 11:15 AM	#6
randtbrown MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Jun 2004 Location: The Woodlands, Texas Posts: 2,867 Gallery: randtbrown Stats: Before baby: 225/160- Current:209/181/170 (-28) WOE: Atkins Start Date: June 11, 2004/ restart 3/15/06	I read about this thread in another thread in the main lobby. I have a history of binging and purging. Althought it has gotten much better, I still purge sometimes, but I don't really binge anymore per say. When i go out to dinner at a restruant or eat a little more than I wish I had at home I always purge it. As soon as I feel full, I feel the need to purge. It only happens about 2-3X a month now, better than all the time, but still not good. But now, I'm worried I'm slipping the other direction. I never want to eat. I eat very little and I have really quit losing b/c I'm not eating enough, I think. I'm almost scared of food and would just rather go without. Has anyone ever switched like this? I'm going to start the Fat Fast on Monday to make myself be a little more structured with 200 calorie meals 5X a day. As you all know, my issues with eating have very little to do with my weight. I come from an alcoholic/drug and OCD family, my vice has always been food- I don't touch alcohol or drugs. I am in therapy. But sometimes it is nice to talk to those to actually have gone through it. Thanks for listening! __________________ ~Tarrah~ PROUD SUPPORT SISTER MEMBER OF THE NEW MOMMY CHALLENGE! Read my journal about being a new mommy and losing the baby fat! Beautiful Baby Boy- Kyle Lewis- born 1/26/06 www.babykylebrown.blogspot.com IT WORKED ONCE! Pre-pregnancy weight loss 65lbs - Start 225/ End 160 Dedicated to losing it again- for good!

Thread Tools
Show Printable Version Email this Page
Display Modes
Linear Mode Switch to Hybrid Mode Switch to Threaded Mode

08-13-2004, 10:51 PM	#3
CKjinx'd MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Feb 2003 Location: Minnesota Posts: 2,548 Gallery: CKjinx'd Stats: 438/??/175 WOE: Back to Atkins!! woot! Start Date: re-start Oct 28, 2007	hey letty! Thanks...been trying to hang in there. I just get frustrated because i have soooooo much to lose before my body slows down and comes to a halt for a bit...some ppl stop losing after 9 months...and who knows how long those plateaus last..hehehehe...I will get over it though...49 lbs is nothing to sneeze at! I'm just happy to be anything under where I was. thanks for the support Letty.

08-21-2004, 08:14 PM	#4
MindyK MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: Cape Girardeau, MO Posts: 1,212 Gallery: MindyK Stats: 200/137.5/130 WOE: All Sorts of LC	I'm posting to continue to get this thread. I have my own story to tell about my own struggle with bulimia, but I don't have time to do it right now. However, I'm really glad to see this support board show up - wish there had been one to help me during the hardest years. Hugs to all... will be back soon.

08-26-2004, 02:01 PM	#5
CKjinx'd MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Feb 2003 Location: Minnesota Posts: 2,548 Gallery: CKjinx'd Stats: 438/??/175 WOE: Back to Atkins!! woot! Start Date: re-start Oct 28, 2007	hey y'all! BIG HUGS TO ALL how is it going? I have been sick sick sick this week...blech....my stomach hurts soo much today...after I ate. sigh I'm still hanging in there low carb even though I"m sick..it makes it tough sometimes, though..hahaha... i can't really afford to go to the store...well, nothing really about it..at this time i can't afford to go to the store to get "soft" legal foods so like an idiot i ate a taco salad and augh...it hurts. on the upside, haven't had an episode in a week or two...thanfully!!

08-30-2004, 02:21 PM	#7
CKjinx'd MAJOR LCF POSTER! Join Date: Feb 2003 Location: Minnesota Posts: 2,548 Gallery: CKjinx'd Stats: 438/??/175 WOE: Back to Atkins!! woot! Start Date: re-start Oct 28, 2007	hey rb, I hear you. My vice has always been food, too...I live on a reservation and it's a pretty depressing place to be. My mom was a single parent and an alcoholic/drug abuser and she didn't have much control or wherewithal to even be around much. If there was something else to do, she was gone...most of the time. Sooooo....I ate and ate and ate and ate. When I got older, i got into the alcohol scene...when I was 23 I had a MAJOR problem with alcohol. sigh after I quit drinking completely, I noticed my obsession with food picked up again. sigh Addictive personality..that's me..hehehe.