Accountability - Month of August 2004

[MaryMary]

Hi everyone,

It is so good to be home. One book I read while away was Dr. Phil's Relationship Rescue. He is a good writer and seems to speak from the heart. I was planning on giving the book to my son and thought I would read it before turning it over. Now I want to get my own copy and do some of the exercises in it. It starts off by saying that if you think you have a problem with your relationship and you think the problem is with your partner, start by working on yourself. And he gives very specific instructions for how to do this. I found it very similar to the 12 step philosophy, in that the only one we each control is our own actions and reactions, everything and everyone else belongs to the universe and own themselves.

Watching my son and his GF while we were gone, brought me back to when I was in my 20's and 30's. I tried to fix my DH since any problems I saw were his fault. Yeh! I tried to blame him for my problems. We have gotten past that but my son's GF is trying to fix him, you know, be more affectionate in public, quit drinking & eat more healthy, etc. It is driving him bonkers. So I bought the book and when he was stressed over the situation, I said, 'read the book, even one chapter as it will help.' Dr. Phil says, 'do you want to be right or happy?' And my son said, ' well, doesn't that apply to her too?' And I said, 'yes, it does, so read the book.'

Food is good and in its place, all weighed & measured and planned for the day. It is a great feeling knowing what I am going to have and not have to think about eating all day. It becomes just another necessary habit that has to be performed, like taking a shower, brushing my teeth and getting dressed in the morning.

Have a good day everyone.

[meriweather]

Hi Mary - well today my food is in place also. I met with my sponsor last night and had a great time getting to know her, going over the food plan, planning my food for today and getting my first question to answer!

[Mur]

Hi everyone I just wanted to post and say I WILL NOT EAT. I got some bad news today and I think my family is in for a rough time. Already I am feeling the stress and I am having some hunger. But supper was weighed out and eaten and I do not need to eat again until breakfast tomorrow.

[MaryMary]

Hi Meri & Mur - and everyone else that might stop by.

It has been quiet on this thread. Hope everyone is alright. Went swimming and hottubbing this morning. It felt good. Listened inn to a meeting on the phone bridge this morning at 7 am. What a nice way to start the day.

Have a good one.

[amadeus4313]

Hi all of you "M" ladies. another M popping in. Mur, just wanted you to know that I will keep you in prayer.

Waving and MaryMary and Meri and wishing you both a good week. Things are going great again for me.

MaryA.

[meriweather]

Everything is going great with me. I have a wonderful sponsor and I'm loving the food - especially the freedom weighing & measuring gives me.

[doodles]

I've been lax in posting and in eating. I have lost my control and need to strategize finding it again.

[MaryMary]

Just wanted to stop in and say hello. I have a new sponsor and have begun journaling every day. I guess I was just ready for this. Writing long hand has never been a strength. It seems like too much effort, but I am journaling long hand and not on the computer. I am looking forward to seeing what it reveals about me.

We are leaving for vacation tomorrow so I won't be back most likely until the 30th. Hope you all have a great week. Enjoy the journey!

[ljh150]

Hi all, I was wondering what this challenge is, did I miss something? I'm hoping it is support for those that have binging/food addictions? That is what I need. Even though I've lost 120 lbs. on Atkins, I still struggle to maintain my loss, and I havn't even reached goal yet! I was 178 this morning, 8 lbs. above my lowest weight, and 18 lbs. above my goal! This is because I have spent the past week binging on legal and non-legal foods. I am so ashamed, that this is the only place I can confess this disorder, I don't want anyone in my life to know. I have had a twisted relationship with food ever since I can remember. Even now, I am sitting here typing and eating a 6-pack of Hershey's one carb candy bars! Can anyone else relate to what I'm saying, anyone conquered the gluttony demon? I am a Christian and I know gluttony is a sin, I've got to turn it over to my heavenly Father.

[Smythe]

Mary-
Can I post here even if I am not in OA..that didn't work out well for me ..kinda long story, but I was not comfortable, and nobody I asked was available to sponser me...ummm, what is that about...hello, they tell you to get a sponser and then everyone yoou asks says they are not available . Felt a bit rejected so I left after 2 weeks. ) But I am trying to east clean and have been on induction for 2 weeks now. so far so good.

Ok, this is what I need to be held accountable!!! Thanks

[Smythe]

I went to the beach yesterday and the board walk was loaded with stuff I normally would have dove into...you can just imagine!! Anyway, i ate clean and stayed on plan. I did find myself looking at others who were eating ice cream, funnel cake and other things and thinking "it's not fair that I can't eat that". That's the demon I have to get rid of...the "it's not fair I can't."..! That myth of believing I'm deprived if I don't have just a taste of ______. I need to keep in mind that I am just as much of an addict as an alcoholic is, and my poison is poison to me, not everyone else.

Thanks for the space here. It really helps to sort out my thinking.

[amadeus4313]

Smythe, so sorry that I missed your posts. This list hasn't been very busy lately. You don't have to be in OA to post here. I'm not. I couldn't find a sponsor either, but MaryMary is a wonderful support on this board. I struggle with compulsive eating, but I haven't binged in over a month. I have started taking 7-Keto Dhea - it has really helped my energy levels.

Anyway, I sure didn't mean to ignore you and here is a big
Take care,
MaryA

[Smythe]

no worries...
I have been hearing a lot about this 7keto stuff. Do you feel like it stablizes your compulsion to binge? I am really struggling today...I have eaten 2000 calories...that is about 6-700 more than I have been doing. Everything was legal, but I know it was to "feed a need", instead of because I was hungry .

I seem to always feel the need to binge around the full moon . i know that sounds crazy, but I think my mood is effected in some way. I guess you could say I am really a
" lunatic" . I just feel different .

Oh well, back in control tomorrow.

Thanks for responding!!
LisaO

[amadeus4313]

What I've noticed about the 7-keto is that I feel more focused. My mood is really, really great. I haven't binged in over a month, but I'm not sure that it's because of the 7-keto. I started on a low dose antidepressant for hot flashes and I haven't binged since then. I've been taking the 7-keto for about 2 weeks. I may not be feeling all of the benefits yet. The price is really good, though.

[Smythe]

Last day of August! Clean eating since I started Aug 16 (I think!).

Begin my new job tomorrow. Hope all goes smoothly. They supply lunch, so I'm hoping there are at least some good choices for me. If not, I'll abstain until I get home .

Have a good September all!!!

[MaryMary]

I am starting a new one for September.