Okay, so I purchased a food scale...

Linda Marie · 06-26-2004, 08:53 PM

Hello Family,

The time has come to fight this addiction head to head. I finally decided that enough is enough and I need to do something drastically different. Where my life has no structure I need absolute structure. Of course that area of my life is when I am around food. I have taken the first step of purchasing a food scale. Now I just need to pick a day and start to use it. I guess tomorrow morning would be as good as any to start. As a matter of fact, I am sure that if I don't start using it, it won't be long before my compulsive eating takes my life. I must step in and save myself from the disaster that will certainly happen if I don't get real. I want to stop counting calories, carbos, or anything else for that matter. I want simple! Just plain and simple. I need to know what to eat, how much to eat and when to eat. The Greysheet offers me the serenity that I believe I am looking for. In my heart, the first time I heard about this program from one of the members of this board, I knew it was the direction I would surely be moving too. Why you may ask? Well, the answer is really quite simple. Because I NEED to simplicity of Greysheet. I need to arrest my complusive eating and get back my sanity. I want what I hear on the phone meetings. I want get joy from living my life and not from compulsively overeating. I cannot be trusted around food. I must have a plan or otherwise left to my own discretion, I will kill myself by my own inability to control my desire to eat. I love to eat more than I love myself. That has to stop! Once I start on the carbs I am not done till I am drunk with the food. So much so, that all I want is to lay down and sleep. I am so easily angered when I am in the food. I have no patience for me or anyone else for that matter. I don't want to participate in life. Just isolate. I wake up with all kinds of hopes and dreams of staying on program only to slip and slide my way to a binge one day after another. I don't know how many recoveries I have in me, but I really don't want to find out that this is the last one. I need to stop picking up the food. I want to know that even when everything else is falling apart, the one thing I do have control of is what I eat. My disease tells me that I need to eat more and more and more and even more to feel good. To get the help I am looking for. But this is a lie. The food does not help! the food does not fix a thing! It only makes my life or problems worse. I can assure you that when I stuffed with food I am of no use to you or me. I want the freedom to live my life that way it was meant to be lived. I know that God does not want my life to be all about the food. I want to be free from this addiction. I want to stop being so afraid of letting go and giving up the food. I want to run barefoot on the beach. I want to be released from this bondage that I have lived in all my life! I ask that God as I understand him to help me do his will not mine. I ask that HE remove these defects from me. I ask that he provide me the strength to get up in the morning and weigh and measure my food no matter what. I ask that when those fleeting thoughts come into my brain to eat just this once. That he gives me stronger thoughts to call someone and reach out and ask for help. I ask that he remove my fear of reaching out and appearing needy. I ask God to forgive my promises that I never keep to him or myself when it comes to food. I am willing to whatever it takes to stay out of the food. I want to live the saying IDENMW! I knew from the first moment I read the Greysheet that it could save my life. I had finally had the way out of my miserable life. The only thing I didn't know what how long I was going to procrastinate as usual to finally commit myself to 90 days of abstinence. Thanks to one of the members of this board. I have decided to surrender my will and ask that God help me do what I could never do for myself. Tomorrow, I follow the Cambridge Greysheet, weigh and measure all of my meals, write them down, turn them over to a qualified person or sponser. I won't eat no matter what. Even if my a$$ falls off! Abstinence is the more important thing in my life....because my friends, without it....I HAVE NO LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love,
Linda Marie
WT 366
IDENMW

amadeus4313 · 06-27-2004, 05:44 AM

, Linda Marie!

I'm so glad you found us. You will be such a wonderful addition to our forum.

Mary

doodles · 06-28-2004, 01:41 PM

aboard. Thank you for sharing.

06-26-2004, 08:53 PM	#1
Linda Marie Senior LCF Member Join Date: Nov 2000 Location: Oregon Posts: 425 Gallery: Linda Marie Stats: 402/392.5/147 WOE: GSA Start Date: 2/4/08	Okay, so I purchased a food scale... Hello Family, The time has come to fight this addiction head to head. I finally decided that enough is enough and I need to do something drastically different. Where my life has no structure I need absolute structure. Of course that area of my life is when I am around food. I have taken the first step of purchasing a food scale. Now I just need to pick a day and start to use it. I guess tomorrow morning would be as good as any to start. As a matter of fact, I am sure that if I don't start using it, it won't be long before my compulsive eating takes my life. I must step in and save myself from the disaster that will certainly happen if I don't get real. I want to stop counting calories, carbos, or anything else for that matter. I want simple! Just plain and simple. I need to know what to eat, how much to eat and when to eat. The Greysheet offers me the serenity that I believe I am looking for. In my heart, the first time I heard about this program from one of the members of this board, I knew it was the direction I would surely be moving too. Why you may ask? Well, the answer is really quite simple. Because I NEED to simplicity of Greysheet. I need to arrest my complusive eating and get back my sanity. I want what I hear on the phone meetings. I want get joy from living my life and not from compulsively overeating. I cannot be trusted around food. I must have a plan or otherwise left to my own discretion, I will kill myself by my own inability to control my desire to eat. I love to eat more than I love myself. That has to stop! Once I start on the carbs I am not done till I am drunk with the food. So much so, that all I want is to lay down and sleep. I am so easily angered when I am in the food. I have no patience for me or anyone else for that matter. I don't want to participate in life. Just isolate. I wake up with all kinds of hopes and dreams of staying on program only to slip and slide my way to a binge one day after another. I don't know how many recoveries I have in me, but I really don't want to find out that this is the last one. I need to stop picking up the food. I want to know that even when everything else is falling apart, the one thing I do have control of is what I eat. My disease tells me that I need to eat more and more and more and even more to feel good. To get the help I am looking for. But this is a lie. The food does not help! the food does not fix a thing! It only makes my life or problems worse. I can assure you that when I stuffed with food I am of no use to you or me. I want the freedom to live my life that way it was meant to be lived. I know that God does not want my life to be all about the food. I want to be free from this addiction. I want to stop being so afraid of letting go and giving up the food. I want to run barefoot on the beach. I want to be released from this bondage that I have lived in all my life! I ask that God as I understand him to help me do his will not mine. I ask that HE remove these defects from me. I ask that he provide me the strength to get up in the morning and weigh and measure my food no matter what. I ask that when those fleeting thoughts come into my brain to eat just this once. That he gives me stronger thoughts to call someone and reach out and ask for help. I ask that he remove my fear of reaching out and appearing needy. I ask God to forgive my promises that I never keep to him or myself when it comes to food. I am willing to whatever it takes to stay out of the food. I want to live the saying IDENMW! I knew from the first moment I read the Greysheet that it could save my life. I had finally had the way out of my miserable life. The only thing I didn't know what how long I was going to procrastinate as usual to finally commit myself to 90 days of abstinence. Thanks to one of the members of this board. I have decided to surrender my will and ask that God help me do what I could never do for myself. Tomorrow, I follow the Cambridge Greysheet, weigh and measure all of my meals, write them down, turn them over to a qualified person or sponser. I won't eat no matter what. Even if my a$$ falls off! Abstinence is the more important thing in my life....because my friends, without it....I HAVE NO LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!! Love, Linda Marie WT 366 IDENMW __________________ Hugs, Linda Marie Day One 1/1/08 Weight 402 402/392.5/147 402,401,400,399,398,397,396,395,394,393,392,391,390, 389,387,386,387

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06-27-2004, 05:44 AM	#2
amadeus4313 Very Gabby LCF Member!!! Join Date: Aug 2002 Location: Beautiful mid-Michigan Posts: 3,146 Blog Entries: 2 Gallery: amadeus4313	, Linda Marie! I'm so glad you found us. You will be such a wonderful addition to our forum. Mary

06-28-2004, 01:41 PM	#3
doodles Way too much time on my hands! Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Colts Country! Posts: 14,045 Gallery: doodles WOE: I don't even know at this point. Start Date: hmmm, what time is it now?	aboard. Thank you for sharing.