Accountability Wk of 6-14 to 6-20

[doodles]

Where has the year gone? It's already flag day. I'm at work, but wanted to start a new thread. I hit several bumps in my road to recovery on Friday, but am firmly back on the path now.

[MaryMary]

Hi everyone,

Twas a busy weekend. Managed to fit in two meetings and some gardening (raking & weed pulling). This is the first year that I willinging did this. Gardening, that is. I am trying to do a little bit each day, just to get the fresh air and sunshine.

Food is in its place, abstinent and grateful. Since the headaches have been more frequent, I believe it is because I cut back on my exercising and increased my computer time on LCFs. So you see where this is going. I have to weigh and measure my computer time and exercise/activity.

Hope you all have a great week and doodles, thanks for starting us off this week.

[Caryl_Lou]

I attended my first meeting on Saturday, and got a sponsor! I am so grateful. I spent most of yesterday at my daughter's, it was the first time she and her boyfriend had cooked for me, and I was just not able to say 'I must weigh all of this' so I stuck to what I could have, and 'estimated' the amounts. Not ideal, I know, but I was not tempted to stray, and today has been really precise I cannot believe how MUCH food I am expected to eat, and as for wheatgerm, well.......It just cannot be legal, it tastes soooo good. There seems to be some discrepancy between the amount quoted on the sheet, eg. strawberries, 1 cup, and the amount I am advised to eat, 8 ox. When I weighed 1 cup it weighed 4 oz. Any comments, experienced sheeters?

[amadeus4313]

Hi everyone,
Today I am celebrating 17 days of freedom from the insanity of compulsive eating. Mondays are assessment and official weigh-in days for me. I have dropped 9.6 pounds since I declared my independence from the grip of compulsion. I am grateful; so grateful You all have been instrumental in this miracle. Just for today - just for today.

Pam - thank you so much for starting the thread today. Glad to hear you're back on track. How quickly you get back on track truly does determine your eventual success.

Caryl Lou - That is wonderful that you found a sponsor so quickly.
I am so glad you have joined us!

Mary, since we've had so much rain, I actually have flowers and weeds growing. Unfortunately, this is such a rare occurance that I can't always tell the difference. Wanna come help me?

I am late getting on today. During the summer I volunteer at a crisis pregnancy center - my daughter happens to work there .

I had a great weekend even though we had tornado warnings. We celebrated my son's birthday and all but one of the kids were home. Plus, my son's girlfriend's parents also came. It was a fun time.

Well, I have to get back to work, but wanted to say hey to all of you.

Mary/Amadeus

[loves2sing]

It's very late on Monday night, almost midnight.

I'm not teaching tomorrow, so getting to sleep late won't be a big problem.

I just finished writing a letter to my ex-husband, explaining that, on Thursday, I will be going to the county Department of Child Support Services to get their help with our child support situation.

Whew! I worked on that letter for a long time, trying not to be self-righteous or judgmental, but to stand up appropriately for myself and our daughter.

As I understand it, he owes me quite a bit of money, and he is obligated to continue paying appropriate child support every month.

The county agency will help me get our divorce agreement modified, to get an updated level of child support. They will also collect any past-due amounts, and future payments, by issuing a wage assignment to his employer.

This is the right thing for me to do, but it's also new behavior for me, to stand up for myself like this... In the past I've allowed my ex to under-pay child support, and then I worked more than one job to make up the difference... I don't want to allow things to go that way again.

I anticipate that he'll try to get me to back down. We'll see...

Happily abstinent today, my 28th day.

Thanks for being here...
Goodnight to all,
Cindy

[amadeus4313]

Good morning everyone. I am at Day 1 of freedom from the insanity of compulsive eating.

I had a bit of a setback last night and I'm debating whether to start the count over. Last night I said "no" I'm going to keep on going, but that was because I knew the minute I said I would be starting over tomorrow, a binge would follow. I didn't do that and so, even though I broke my abstinence, I didn't binge. It was scary, though, and if I'm honest with myself, I will see that my vigilence has been slipping a little the last few days. So, with that in mind, I am going to pull myself up short and start the count again.

My problem is that I get to complacent and think that I have things under control. I thought I was watching that tendency, but still I slipped. So, today is a new day.

{{{{{{{{{{{{{Cindy}}}}}}}}}}}}}} I will keep you and your daughter in my prayers. How wonderful that you are getting through this and still protecting your abstinence.

[MaryMary]

Hi everyone,

The sewer people showed up today instead of Thursday. They are connecting to the town sewer instead of our old septic system. That's an expensive endeavor and we have no choice in the matter. Food is okay and I am abstinent and grateful.

Mary A - Way to go. Honesty is more important. We all do this one day at a time. I had to start my count over a few times not because of any major eating binges, but because of breaking commitments to myself regarding how I was working my program. If I learn a lesson from the break, then it is a valuable part of my journey.

Cindi - You family is in my prayers. Thank God for your program. By staying abstinent, it allows you to deal with it all with a clear head.

Caryl_Lou - How is it all going? Congrats on getting to the meeting and finding a sponsor.

doodles - Hey there. How's it going?

Hope you all have a nice day.

[loves2sing]

Originally posted by amadeus4313
... if I'm honest with myself, I will see that my vigilence has been slipping a little the last few days. So, with that in mind, I am going to pull myself up short and start the count again.

Mary A, I appreciate your honesty, with yourself and with us.

In my HOW-OA program, after a slip, we talk about a "recommitted" abstinence.

Slipping is human. Compulsive overeating is a disease, cunning, baffling, powerful... Don't be hard on yourself about a slip.

Staring over the very next day is the absolutely BEST possible response.



Cindy

[loves2sing]

Originally posted by amadeus4313
{{{{{{{{{{{{{Cindy}}}}}}}}}}}}}} I will keep you and your daughter in my prayers. How wonderful that you are getting through this and still protecting your abstinence.

Thank you for the support. Prayers are welcome.

Please include my ex in your prayers, also. I hope this will work out in the best possible way for him, too.

to you, Mary A.

Cindy

[loves2sing]

Originally posted by MaryMary
Hi everyone,

The sewer people showed up today instead of Thursday. They are connecting to the town sewer instead of our old septic system. That's an expensive endeavor and we have no choice in the matter. Food is okay and I am abstinent and grateful.

MaryMary, you have such an excellent perspective. You are my inspiration for learning to keep food in its appropriate place.

Thanks for sharing your sanity!

Cindy

[loves2sing]

Originally posted by MaryMary
Cindi - You family is in my prayers. Thank God for your program. By staying abstinent, it allows you to deal with it all with a clear head.

MaryMary, thank you for the support.

Yes, I am grateful for program, more than I can say.

You're right, a clear head... I used to live in a stupor, over-stuffed and with my blood sugar way out of whack.

That NEVER helped me solve my problems!

Thanks for the reminder about another benefit of being abstinent.

to you, MaryMary.

Cindy

[amadeus4313]

Originally posted by loves2sing
Thank you for the support. Prayers are welcome.

Please include my ex in your prayers, also. I hope this will work out in the best possible way for him, too.

to you, Mary A.

Cindy

Cindy, I actually DID include your ex, but I revised the post for fear it might be misunderstood. I will pray that the situation is just for all involved. What a tough thing to have to go through.

to Cindy,

MaryA

[shell78]

Hello all!

Well I've made it to day 4

So far I have not got on the scales ....I'm just enjoying having some "me" time! With only 4 days down I feel more liberated and at peace with myself!

Here is todays food:

b- 2 poached eggs
l-chicken and veg stir fry
d-thai beef salad

low carb. low fat and tasty!

Good luck to everyone....I'll post again in a few days!!

[amadeus4313]

Originally posted by shell78
Hello all!

Well I've made it to day 4

So far I have not got on the scales ....I'm just enjoying having some "me" time! With only 4 days down I feel more liberated and at peace with myself!

Shell, it's so good to hear from you! Day 4 - that is so great. I know that feeling of peace and liberation. It's wonderful isn't it?

Can't wait to hear from you again!

Blessings,
Mary/A

[amadeus4313]

Originally posted by MaryMary
Hi everyone,

The sewer people showed up today instead of Thursday. They are connecting to the town sewer instead of our old septic system. That's an expensive endeavor and we have no choice in the matter. Food is okay and I am abstinent and grateful.

Mary A - Way to go. Honesty is more important. We all do this one day at a time. I had to start my count over a few times not because of any major eating binges, but because of breaking commitments to myself regarding how I was working my program. If I learn a lesson from the break, then it is a valuable part of my journey.

Mary, hopefully your sewer event is now behind you. LOL Thanks for the words of encouragement. No major binge for me either, but - as you say - I did break a commitment to myself to eat only what I planned. Today has gone well and I think I'm pretty well back on track.

Have a great evening, Carole, Pam, Cindy, Mary, Shell, Caryl, and any lurkers who find themselves here.

Mary/A

[amadeus4313]

Good morning everyone. I am at day 2 in my journey of freedom from the insanity of compulsive eating. I am grateful that I am back on track and that I have all of you to care whether I am or not.

I ran a little over 2 miles this morning. It felt really good. Now I have to go up and put in a few hours at school. I am trying to bank hours (I have to get so many in a year to earn service credit for retirement) for when my daughter is close to term. I don't know if I addressed this here or not. Hers is a high-risk pregnancy and she may be on bedrest her last month.
She is doing well and I am grateful.

Have a great day, everyone!

MaryA

[loves2sing]

computer trouble at work...

[loves2sing]

Originally posted by amadeus4313
.... my daughter is close to term. I don't know if I addressed this here or not. Hers is a high-risk pregnancy and she may be on bedrest her last month.
She is doing well and I am grateful.

for Mary A, for her daughter, and for the new baby.



Cindy

[loves2sing]

A calmer day in my classroom, at least so far... I'm enjoying it a lot.

Today is my 30th day of recommitted HOW-OA abstinence.

I am tremendously grateful.





Food is on track for today, so far.

Blessings to all,
Cindy

[loves2sing]

Originally posted by shell78
Hello all!

Well I've made it to day 4

HURRAY TO SHELL!!!


Cindy

[amadeus4313]

Originally posted by loves2sing
for Mary A, for her daughter, and for the new baby.



Cindy

thanks, Cindy. Please remember DSIL, also. He has been a rock through everything. We weren't sure they would be able to have kids. They are thrilled. They have a niece and nephew that I consider my honorary grandchildren, so I have had a little bit of practice at the Granny thing.

MaryA


AND congrats on DAY 30!!!!!!

[doodles]

Good evening friends. I'm almost through day five of clean eating and I'm feeling pretty good. I have a miserable sinus infx, though. One of my gauges for success is my blood sugar and it's been in the 80's every morning this week!
MaryA, will keep your family in my prayers.
Cindy, WTG!
MaryMary, is the sewer system all done?
shell, WTG to you, too!
Have a great evening.

[doodles]

I'm back because I just wanted to thank everyone for your support and for being there.

[loves2sing]

Ugh... Department of Child Support Services wants me to fill out forms before coming in to open my case... 35 pages, forms and instructions...

I'm not good at this kind of thing. I'm a big picture person...




Okay, I need to do this. I want and need to honor my commitment to myself and my daughter.

One page at a time...

Cindy

[amadeus4313]

Awwww {{{{{{{{{{{Cindy}}}}}}}}}}}}} I wish we could help you. Maybe you could divide it into 5 page increments. Do you know who Flylady is? That's what she would tell you to do. Do 5 pages and have a cup of tea. Then do 5 more and take another break.

Let us kow how it goes.

MaryA