Poem - I Am Your Disease by Anonymous

MaryMary · 05-12-2004, 04:07 PM

I received this poem at the 12 step retreat I was at a few weeks ago. It really had an impact on me.

I AM YOUR DISEASE by Anonymous

I hate meetings. I hate a Higher Power.
I hate anyone who has a program.
To all that come in contact with me, I wish you suffering.
Allow me to introduce myself to you.
I am the disease of compulsive overeating.
CUNNING, BAFFLING, POWERFUL & PATIENT.
That's me.
I have killed millions and I am pleased.
I love to catch you with the element of surprise.
I love pretending I am your friend and lover.
I have given you comfort, haven't I?
Wasn't I there when you were lonely?
When you wanted to die didn't you call me, I was there.
I love to make you cry and I love to make you hurt.
Better yet, I love to make you so numb that you can neither hurt nor cry.
You can't feel anything at all... This is true glory.
I'll give you instant gratification and all I ask of you, is long term suffering.
I have been there for you always.
When things were going right in your life, you invited me.
You said you didn't deserve these good things -
and I was the only one who would agree with you.
Together we are able to destroy all good things in your life.
People dop not take me seriously.
They take heart attacks, strokes and diabetes seriously.
More than you hate me, I hate all of you with a twelve step program.
Your program, meetings, and Higher Power all weaken me
and I cannot function in the manner I am accustomed to.
Now I must lie here quietly,
You don't see me but I am there,
growing bigger than ever.
When you only exist I may live
and when you live I may only exist.
But I am here and until we meeting again ...
If we meet again,
I wish you death and suffering.

doodles · 05-13-2004, 06:08 AM

All of this rings so true.

CaroleKI61 · 06-15-2004, 05:57 AM

Thanks that poem is wonderful love Carole

weenhart · 06-17-2004, 08:11 AM

wow as a "recovering" compulsive over eater in the

works here with fresh eating "wounds" i really felt this poem. I

would sincerely like to thank you for posting it and would like to

know if I may join this thread as i really think i could benefit from

your support.

I am new to the BB and truely belive this is probably where I

belong.

Thanks again for the poem i think i will re read it over and over as it's words have really impacted me.

Thanks Teena

MaryMary · 06-17-2004, 05:16 PM

Teena, I look forward to getting to know you.

I attend 12 step meetings, either via telephone or face to face meetings. These meetings deal with compulsive overeating. I have found that having a sponsor along with a portioned food plan were the first steps I took to find sanity. I attend these meetings at least 3 times a week.

Have a great day.

weenhart · 06-17-2004, 09:20 PM

Thanks so much for welcoming me Mary. I really appreciate it.

I have hung your poem by my computer so I can see it and reflect

on it. I have added this thread to my profile and hope to be

talking to you often. I looked at your pics Mary and you have

come along such a long journey... you should be SO proud of

yourself

hope you have a wonderful Friday, Teena

05-12-2004, 04:07 PM	#1
MaryMary Very Gabby LCF Member!!! Join Date: Jun 2001 Location: New Hampshire BMI:57/24-Maintaining Posts: 4,839 Gallery: MaryMary Stats: 376 lbs/155 lbs//Age 60// 5'7" BF%:47+%/28.4%/25% WOE: GSA Cambridge Greysheet "www.greysheet.org" Start Date: Atkins 1/22/01; GSA 12/23/03 - Total Loss 221 lbs.	Poem - I Am Your Disease by Anonymous I received this poem at the 12 step retreat I was at a few weeks ago. It really had an impact on me. I AM YOUR DISEASE by Anonymous I hate meetings. I hate a Higher Power. I hate anyone who has a program. To all that come in contact with me, I wish you suffering. Allow me to introduce myself to you. I am the disease of compulsive overeating. CUNNING, BAFFLING, POWERFUL & PATIENT. That's me. I have killed millions and I am pleased. I love to catch you with the element of surprise. I love pretending I am your friend and lover. I have given you comfort, haven't I? Wasn't I there when you were lonely? When you wanted to die didn't you call me, I was there. I love to make you cry and I love to make you hurt. Better yet, I love to make you so numb that you can neither hurt nor cry. You can't feel anything at all... This is true glory. I'll give you instant gratification and all I ask of you, is long term suffering. I have been there for you always. When things were going right in your life, you invited me. You said you didn't deserve these good things - and I was the only one who would agree with you. Together we are able to destroy all good things in your life. People dop not take me seriously. They take heart attacks, strokes and diabetes seriously. More than you hate me, I hate all of you with a twelve step program. Your program, meetings, and Higher Power all weaken me and I cannot function in the manner I am accustomed to. Now I must lie here quietly, You don't see me but I am there, growing bigger than ever. When you only exist I may live and when you live I may only exist. But I am here and until we meeting again ... If we meet again, I wish you death and suffering. __________________ 2001/2002/2003 - Lost 105 lbs. on Atkins & exercise 2004/2005/2006 - Lost 116 lbs. on the Cambridge Greysheet & GSA (www.greysheet.org) - A 12 Step Program for Carb Sensitive Folks 2006- Panniculectomy - Surgically removed 6 lbs. hanging skin 2007/2008 - Maintaining Free from Compulsive Eating Abstinent since 6/21/2004 by the grace of a Power greater than myself My Journey in Pics from Jan 2001 to June 2006 --LOST 221 LBS. - PEACE !!!--

06-17-2004, 08:11 AM	#4
weenhart Senior LCF Member Join Date: May 2004 Location: Ohio Posts: 96 Gallery: weenhart Stats: 311/257/350 WOE: Atkins all the way!! Start Date: 4/26/04	WOW that poem really hit home. wow as a "recovering" compulsive over eater in the works here with fresh eating "wounds" i really felt this poem. I would sincerely like to thank you for posting it and would like to know if I may join this thread as i really think i could benefit from your support. I am new to the BB and truely belive this is probably where I belong. Thanks again for the poem i think i will re read it over and over as it's words have really impacted me. Thanks Teena

06-17-2004, 09:20 PM	#6
weenhart Senior LCF Member Join Date: May 2004 Location: Ohio Posts: 96 Gallery: weenhart Stats: 311/257/350 WOE: Atkins all the way!! Start Date: 4/26/04	awww thanks Mary :) Thanks so much for welcoming me Mary. I really appreciate it. I have hung your poem by my computer so I can see it and reflect on it. I have added this thread to my profile and hope to be talking to you often. I looked at your pics Mary and you have come along such a long journey... you should be SO proud of yourself hope you have a wonderful Friday, Teena

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05-13-2004, 06:08 AM	#2
doodles Way too much time on my hands! Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Colts Country! Posts: 14,045 Gallery: doodles WOE: I don't even know at this point. Start Date: hmmm, what time is it now?	All of this rings so true.

06-15-2004, 05:57 AM	#3
CaroleKI61 Way too much time on my hands! Join Date: Feb 2003 Location: Toronto, Ontario, Canada Posts: 14,719 Blog Entries: 1 Gallery: CaroleKI61 Stats: 414/now 280 /goal weight 199 WOE: Dr. Atkins- I love you! Start Date: February 14 2003	Thanks that poem is wonderful love Carole

06-17-2004, 05:16 PM	#5
MaryMary Very Gabby LCF Member!!! Join Date: Jun 2001 Location: New Hampshire BMI:57/24-Maintaining Posts: 4,839 Gallery: MaryMary Stats: 376 lbs/155 lbs//Age 60// 5'7" BF%:47+%/28.4%/25% WOE: GSA Cambridge Greysheet "www.greysheet.org" Start Date: Atkins 1/22/01; GSA 12/23/03 - Total Loss 221 lbs.	Teena, I look forward to getting to know you. I attend 12 step meetings, either via telephone or face to face meetings. These meetings deal with compulsive overeating. I have found that having a sponsor along with a portioned food plan were the first steps I took to find sanity. I attend these meetings at least 3 times a week. Have a great day.