I've beenreally depressed lately

karenb · 04-01-2008, 05:30 PM

I think part of it is I can now afford to have someone come in and give me an estimate on putting a sprinkller system and sod in my front yard. It's warm enough that they are doing it here but no one is answering when I leave a an answer on the answearing machine even tho I say my name slowly and correctly and repeat my name and mumber twice. One place gave us an estimate last year but I didn't carry thru. I called this year and he said he'd call back yesterday but didn't and if he called today he didn't leave a message.

The last few days I have been cutting again - twice. They are deeper than before and on both I had to use butterfly closures to stop the bleediing.

mum22 · 04-01-2008, 08:31 PM

(((karenb))))

hippiegirl · 04-03-2008, 07:28 AM

to you. How are you doing?

karenb · 04-04-2008, 06:04 PM

I made an appintment with my therapist for Monday morning.

LeanLioness · 04-05-2008, 12:04 PM

Good, DH and I got in an arguement the other day and I almost started cuttinh again.........I have a scare on my left arm that is still healing and I did that in November.................It was deeper than I thought and needed stitches, but did not go get them...............

karenb · 04-10-2008, 07:27 PM

I've been cutting on my ankles.I don't really want to die or anything. My last 2 cuts needed stitches but I didn't go but used some butterfly closures that stopped the bleeding. I had to cancel my appointment with my cansoler but that night I did a lot of crying and thinking. My sister was not a nice person to be around. DH considered her a *****, and many times I had to agree with him. But she was my ownly sibling and I loved her. When she needed someone to turn too and take care of her, she chose me. I find that healing. Our Mom is in her 90 and couldn't really make the decisions that needed to be make. There were many times I tried for things that couldn't help but I did the best that I could. I truely feel she wanted to move to be near me so her friends couldn't see what was happening to her. I'm sure she knew if she moved to TX our Mom would come here too and be here for me to be close to. Mom and I give each other support.

I'm sure my sister didn't want us to try and care for her, clean her, change her diapers, etc. It was easier for her to have someone she didn't know from before she got sick to do it for her.

I did the best that I could and I think she was thankful for that.

Star123 · 04-12-2008, 06:47 PM

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Originally Posted by karenb

I made an appintment with my therapist for Monday morning.

Hi Karenb, I just read your post and I care about you and just pmed you!!!Good for you making an appointment for monday morning. That's a very positive move on your part and I encourage you to continue getting the help you need. Your not alone!!! We all feel pain and loneiness in one form or another. And deal with it in our own way. It is time for you to shine!!! to take care of you and love yourself for who you are. You are a unique and specially made by a God who loves and cares about you very much. He knows what you are going through, what pain you are enduring and what you need to do to get well. You can pm me anytime. I will be there for you.

Note, here's some info. Mental Illness - Self-Injury

Karenb, I will keep you in my prayers!!!

God Bless,

04-01-2008, 05:30 PM	#1
karenb Way too much time on my hands! Join Date: Jun 2002 Posts: 12,182 Gallery: karenb	I've beenreally depressed lately I think part of it is I can now afford to have someone come in and give me an estimate on putting a sprinkller system and sod in my front yard. It's warm enough that they are doing it here but no one is answering when I leave a an answer on the answearing machine even tho I say my name slowly and correctly and repeat my name and mumber twice. One place gave us an estimate last year but I didn't carry thru. I called this year and he said he'd call back yesterday but didn't and if he called today he didn't leave a message. The last few days I have been cutting again - twice. They are deeper than before and on both I had to use butterfly closures to stop the bleediing.

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karenb Way too much time on my hands! Join Date: Jun 2002 Posts: 12,182 Gallery: karenb	I made an appintment with my therapist for Monday morning.

04-05-2008, 12:04 PM	#5
LeanLioness Very Gabby LCF Member!!! Join Date: Apr 2003 Location: Newport News, VA Posts: 3,096 Gallery: LeanLioness Stats: 230/210.0/120 (-16.6 lbs) WOE: Starting over, Atkins Phase 1 Start Date: Started Induction Again, January 1, 2008	Good, DH and I got in an arguement the other day and I almost started cuttinh again.........I have a scare on my left arm that is still healing and I did that in November.................It was deeper than I thought and needed stitches, but did not go get them...............

04-10-2008, 07:27 PM	#6
karenb Way too much time on my hands! Join Date: Jun 2002 Posts: 12,182 Gallery: karenb	I've been cutting on my ankles.I don't really want to die or anything. My last 2 cuts needed stitches but I didn't go but used some butterfly closures that stopped the bleeding. I had to cancel my appointment with my cansoler but that night I did a lot of crying and thinking. My sister was not a nice person to be around. DH considered her a *****, and many times I had to agree with him. But she was my ownly sibling and I loved her. When she needed someone to turn too and take care of her, she chose me. I find that healing. Our Mom is in her 90 and couldn't really make the decisions that needed to be make. There were many times I tried for things that couldn't help but I did the best that I could. I truely feel she wanted to move to be near me so her friends couldn't see what was happening to her. I'm sure she knew if she moved to TX our Mom would come here too and be here for me to be close to. Mom and I give each other support. I'm sure my sister didn't want us to try and care for her, clean her, change her diapers, etc. It was easier for her to have someone she didn't know from before she got sick to do it for her. I did the best that I could and I think she was thankful for that.